FatPig Memories !

2010-04-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

i wasnt angry with S when she told me she couldnt make it for the Genting trip.

instead, i felt really sad and i cried after reading her message. i felt a huge wave of disappointment splashing at me from head to toe.

since we were best friends from secondary one. we have always been talking and dreaming about going for a trip, out of singapore, to somewhere we can have fun. we targetted to save money for the trip after our O level exams before we separate on going to different school, in different course and hanging out with different friends. but we didnt make it for the trip.

throughout the three years in poly. S's place as a best friend in my heart is still always number 1 even though the chatting and meeting time gets lesser and lesser as days went on. but we still keep talking and dreaming about a trip after we graduate, before we enter university and going into the society. and this time, i want to make it happen. i know it would be harder to plan for a trip in future as everyone will have different schedule, be it for studies or work.

this trip isnt just about celebrating elvin's birthday. the main focus is us (serene, yingjie, shermin, weijun, joel, alvin soh) going for the last trip before everyone gets on with our life. the guys going for ns, the girls are either going for further studies or into the workforce.

i dont mind changing the date for the trip since i am still going to celebrate elvin's birthday in singapore, just the two of us. but May is probably the cheapest month to go for a trip. and the guys still have time before they go for their ns. they dont even know when is their ns, prolly june or august or september. how am i suppose to plan when everyone schedule is different.

i asked everyone about their schedule, whether they could make it on either the 6th or 7th may. if you need time to think, i get it and i totally understand it. but at least tell me, that you need some time to think and plan for your schedule. instead of totally being silent, which, i dont know whether you want or do not want to go.

i am not asking them to do the planning, to do all the coordination, to check out the price, to make the booking and informing everyone making sure that they are aware of it. seriously. who even appreciate?

posting a few post on FB, who replied exactly to my question?

this trip is not like you can book on the day you want to go. thats why i need an early response from everyone.

i message weijun. EVERYTIME. i message him, is either he did not reply or he replied a few days later. im really sick and tired of chasing him for answer. yesterday i messaged him to double check whether hes going for the trip. NO REPLIES AT ALL. but he bother to reply to xueqi's FB and elvin's message at 11pm+ which he should have received my message hours before. so what now?

i wasnt angry at all. i wasnt disappointed with serene not coming for the flea and etc. i was only disappointed that she did not want to go for the trip because she needs the money for other stuff. i understand her family financial and etc. but this trip was mentioned like months ago. i already told them to start preparing the money for the trip.

last week she told me she may not be going because she might be extending her work therefore she will not be able to take leave. okay i understand, and thats what i told her. but why is the reason that she told me she is not going different from the first? i mean, in that is the case, no matter what the reason is, she is not going at all? either case she will not go.

i had a very bad day at the flea, with weijun, with the genting trip's planning. and now serene. the one friend that i really wish that she will go, is not going. can you imagin the disappointment?

next. none of them, except yingjie and shermin is excited about the trip. i really appreciate all of yingjie's help as she volunteer to help me with all the planning. i seriously need her help. when shermin messaged me that her parents allow her to go, she herself is also very excited about the trip. her excitment, at least make me feel like, like, like, you get enthu in the planning again. i dont know how to explain but me myself also felt damn happy when i saw her message.

i just need everyone's cooperation, maybe show slightly abit enthu in the trip. else, whats the point of going?

i dont know. i feel very tired. now im even thinking whether i should go and check out the cost of the trip and etc from the travelling agency with yingjie this coming tuesday.. even if we did it.. i dont know.. and i dont want to know anymore..

weijun.. my bff.. till today i still have not receive his message.. this time.. dont tell me you forget.. dont tell me you are busy.. because i saw him replying to xueqi's FB.. because i saw his reply to elvin's message.. what else are you going to explain?

serene.. my number 1 bff.. i dont know.. i dont know how to talk to her.. i dont know how to reply her message.. i just feel that the trip of us will always be a dream.. because i really dont know when she will be able to go.. i will just take the dream of us (me, serene maybe yingjie and shermin too) chit chatting while we lie on the bed, talking everytime we shared from secondary 1 till now, perhaps a pillow fight.. all away from my head.. because thinking of this now.. i guess my heart hurts.. i feel that we arent as close as before.. i feel that im not her bestest friend anymore.. the common interest between us seems to.. disappear? is like, in her heart, is always her family, her cousins and cathi. i tried to be supportive in whatever she do, try to make it for her fusion X thingy and had to cancel some of the plans away, i try to squeeze out time between my industrial attachment and weekly reports and tuition to go for the jap class which turns out i dont think i was cut out to learn other language. i mean, typically, i really sucks in it. i really tried not to disappoint her, whatever she wants, i try to do. but it seems like when i ask her out, eat xiao long bao steamboat.. she always busy or she have reasons to turn me down. i accept it, and never ever was i angry with her. everytime she says she want to stay overnight at my house, i was excited, tremedously excited you know because she stayed overnight at my house before. but everytime, this overnight stay never ever happened because she will chose to go her grandmother or cousin's house to stay. is like, 10 minutes ago she say she will go your house to stayover, wow you are happy, god damn happy, 10 minutes later, she started making phone calls and then tell you shes going to her relative's house to stay overnight instead, is totally like splashing cold water on you. seriously, even elvin could see that i was disappointed on one of the outing even though i tried to act as though nothing happens. to her, maybe im not the best friend, maybe i have a lot of bad points that she did not point it out which i totally believe there are. but i just dont want to lose this friend, the most important friend of my life. does she even know?

its been ages since i last blogged. even i had arguments with elvin i did not write it down here. this is really one time that i need to write it down to vent it off. i really couldnt take it anymore longer. how i should i take it from here now? when is the day i will reactivate my FB? when is the day i can make everything right?

2008-12-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

MOVED!

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2008-09-25T13:34:00.001+08:00

NO MORE BLOGGING ON THIS BLOG ANYMORE.

SHALL CREATE A NEW LINK WHEN I RETURN FROM CHINA ON 6TH OCT.

=)

2008-08-30T21:53:00.003+08:00

hello! i am doing well in china! just recieved a call from my daddy, who is also in china (xia men) too, but is returing to singapore tomorrow! i miss everyone so much! hehe. the weather is pretty cold now because it has been raining for the past few days, and damn i only bring a jacket which is my only long sleeve that i brought over to china! takecare people, if you guys want to talk or webcam with me on msn, try to do it before 11pm because i need my sleep by 11.30pm!

for a more updated life of mine in china, visit http://www.adelenelow.blogspot.com/ because i have to write a daily journal for my coursework.

2008-08-28T07:26:00.002+08:00

OKAY! a quick update, lesson is going to start at 8am today!

daddy and me at the airport.

waiting at guan zhou airport to transfer flight to wu han.

my first dinner in wu han. the egg and ham mac puff is delicious! it cost about S$1 plus. the fries taste even more awesome than singapore's because flavouring powder are given. weets. but i promised baby to have proper meal instead of fast food.

the 41 days of love baby made for me. every letter i read per day brings a smile on my face . =D

this is the food ration in my room. i only brought the korean maggie mee, famous amos cookies and a rice cooker. the rest are fiza and amirah's. oh yes, im staying in the same room together with fiza and amirah.

my two very crazy but cool bunkmates. =D

2008-08-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! im currently in China Wu Han. im staying in a hostel together with fiza and amirah inside WuHan University Of Science And Technology. today is my second day in China, lesson will be starting from tomorrow onwards.

on sunday night, my daddy invited boyfriend over to my house for dinner since he was going to stay over at my house. hehe. boyfriend said that my daddy's cooking is awesome. daddy cooked boyfriend and my favourite crabs! somemore both daddy and boyfriend de-shell the crabs for me. im so fortunate right?! on saturday night, my family boyfriend and i went to a restaurant to have our dinner. photos will be up next time.

anyway, my internet here sucks. if anyone want to contact me, please buy a international call card and get my china number from my boyfriend. i will be creating a wordpress account soon for my daily journal as part of my course work.

some weeks ago, baby and i cooked our lunch at home. my baby is a very good cook, i must admit.

i miss my baby so damn fucking much!!!

early in the morning at the airport. BABY BABY BABY!

BABY! I LOVE YOU! AND HAPPY 2ND MONTH! MUACKS!

2008-08-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

today morning went to boyfriend's house to study. boyfriend's uncle bought us crabs in the afternoon. ~~that idiot~~ my boy actually called me "si fei zhu" infront of his uncle. zzz. this is the first time i eat crabs until so happily because my boy de-shell the crabs and feed me. teehee. next time i shall cook crabs for my boy too since it was his favourite. love you baby!

this is piggy, my boy's favourite dog. she is the oldest among the other two dogs. she has a very smelly mouth. she has the privilege to sleep on my boy's bed and she even has her own pikachu pillow. today she used her front paw to hit my head when the both of us were taking a short nap on my boy's bed. ~.~

this is hugo. he is the most horniest dog i have ever see. he has a pair of emo-looking eyes. there was quite a number of time when i saw him sitting at a corner, panting. then, i saw his "little brother" coming out. just take a look at his photo, i think he has the potential to make porn. oh he is afraid of the thunder too. ~.~

this is panda. i did not have much interaction with her because most of the time she is locked in her cage. she just lost her virginity because of hugo. today i was playing with tissue paper with her and i did not expect that she will snatch it away. in the end, the tissue paper went down into her stomach. she practically eats everything that is edible. ~.~

had curry veggies for dinner. and i doubt my flu will ever gets better.

2008-08-16T15:27:00.003+08:00

pris came to my house a few hours ago and we went to JP to have our lunch. my sorethroat leads to a fever a few days ago, and now im having a flu. ~.~

hmm. some random thoughts. i think the greatest obstacle in a relationship would probably be parents objection. hmm, im glad that my family can accept boyfriend.

pris, cheerup okay. it takes time to be okay, but yah, we will be here for you. if you need to release your stress, dont hold back your tears okay. have a good rest and goodluck for your exam, see you on 22th.

p.s. the getwellsoon card is so sweet.

2008-08-16T10:54:00.002+08:00

i have been controlling my temper. i have been trying to see the bad things in a different and good way. yet all the while you have been trying to test my tolerance. i did not voice out my thinking and feeling in my blog or to any of my friends. i dont want to make this issue a big one. but it seems like the more i keep quiet, the more fingers are starting to point at me. dont you think you are getting a little overboard. regarding the most recent thing that you have done to (ONLY TO) me, did you even apologise?

my disappointment level regarding you, has reached its highest point.

this post is not talking about my family, boyfriend nor bestfriends. ask me if you want to know.

2008-08-13T06:13:00.002+08:00

i just woke up because i just gave my boyfriend a morning call. its freaking 6am. the air outside smells so fresh.

im sick, again. -.-''' this time im down with a sore throat, hopefully it wont leads to a cough. boyfriend came to visit me after his lesson which ended early because i heard that the whole class skipped the lab lesson. -.-''' teehee. he cooked porridge for me since i cant really swallow any food down my throat. and and! he bought some mooncakes to satisfy my craving! green tea mooncake rocks man! he is always the best. =D

daddy has also been making me to drink the luo han guo water he cooked, one cup after another cup. T.T sister bought pi pa gao to relieve the soreness in my throat. they are always the best too. =D

buddy is going to thailand with her school for 2 weeks. aww, luckily she is going away while im still in china. =/

some days ago, boyfriend cooked maggie mee for me. its not just some normal maggie mee okay. two spoonful of XO was added. 正点!

im going back to my sleep for awhile. tata~

2008-08-12T22:22:00.002+08:00

i love my baby so much. this shall be the last ring i will wear for the rest of my life, unless its from my baby. =)

2008-08-11T18:35:00.002+08:00

went for the china trip briefing this morning. actually im rather glad that i got close friends like andy and chinxiang for accompanion during the 6 weeks, at least got someone to share my heart burden. happy me. but sad thing is, im arranged to sleep in the same room with another two girls who i dont even know, weiling and clarrisa. hmm, heard that they are very nice people, so hmm hope so then. =/

so confirm will be meeting xueqi joel alvin and pris serene on the 22th for gathering. as for the 23th and 24th it will be reserved for my family and boyfriend, have to pack my luggage too.

who has changed and who has not? find out the truth before starting the pin-pointing.

2008-08-10T21:10:00.001+08:00

hehe. im back to my normal self again. weets! boyfriend finally brought me to popeyes at the singapore flyers! super duper happy. been longing and longing and longing for it. one wish down from my wishlist. who knows there might be an earthquake in china. ~.~

we had spicy and mild chicken, but actually both of them tasted almost the same. erm, pretty much like KFC but popeyes tastes better. is much towards on the salty side.

this is call the biscuit. erm, very soft and cakey. abit salty too. taste abit weird to my likening.

okay the fries is nice when it is hot.

coleslaw! can actually taste the vinegar. okay, i like it, very much. =D

after that went to marina square to watch "The Love Guru". jessica alba is hot! romance plus comedy, and more of an indian movie with sexual content. teehee. awesome. meet buddy and his boyfriend for dinner at what yoshinoya lah. i still dislike the food from yoshinoya. ~.~ anyway, before we meet buddy we were actually standing behind a pillar peeking at them KISSING! =D

saw some firework from NDP. too crowded with people. tsktsk. i still can remember that last year our class agreed to watch firework together again this year. end up? nothing. expected. lunch movie outing gathering, i would go if im asked but not at the very last minute, especially when im at the bus stop. =( anyway, the four of us went to play pool after the firework. somebody very happy hoR, somebody very pro in pool hoR. tsktsk. and one more thing, we saw blood stain that dragged a few metres in marina square, heard that there was a fight. =/ awww, im chubby right. =(

weet weet. use my camera to take sweet sweet photo uh. =D

boyfriend, you make me feel so loved by hugging me tightly in your arms.

2008-08-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

im feeling much better after a good sleep, even though it was only 4 hours.

thanks buddy and bestfriend who helped to calm me down. was crying rather uncontrollable yesterday night. 5 hours of crying wears me out until i got knocked out.

today is grandma' 3rd death anniversary. even though im not close to her, but still i know she dote pretty much on me in the past. we always had communication problem because i dont speak/understand hokkien neither do she speak/understand mandarin. =/ and im not going AMK (my relative house) to pray. sorry.

going out later. maybe alone, i dont know. i have no idea what i want to do or where i want to go. seems like im drifting further away from the society, been much of a homely girl recently.

anyway, happy birthday singapore.

2008-08-09T01:04:00.003+08:00

i started to question myself, what if.

there are many things in this world which are, unpredictable. i understand.
no sign, no warning, nothing.

i cant foresee the future, neither the others could.
what is going to turn my life upside down, again?

regrets, and you wish to turn the time back to make amends.
can you, can we, can i?

if you know your time is up.
what is the last thing you would do?
what is the last word you will say?
or would you just, leave silently?

i have question mark in my head. many of them.
i wish she was here to solve it.
because the question mark origins from her.
but, can she?

of all the choices that i had made, by myself.
are they right? or are they wrong?
i need her guidance.
i need her advice.

i have a question to ask god.
why her?
of all people you can choose, why my mother?
give me a reason, would you?

she was my bestfriend.
she was my soulmate.
she was my teddy bear.
she was my one and only mother.

why did you let me and my family to suffer, for 11 days?
when you had already planned to take her away from us, for eternity.
no last word, and no goodbye.
and she went off to seek peace and harmony in heaven.

i just want to know how she thinks of me, as her daughter.
did i make her proud?
does she hate me when im being rude with her?
i got no chance to ask any of these.

it may sound silly, or even ridiculous to the people outside.
it has been almost 17 months, but part of me still couldnt put her down.
i took quite some time to accept the fact, that she is gone.
it is hard and difficult, but i didnt give up.

i know it is just a dream, a dream that i shouldnt brood over it.
no matter what happens, my mummy will never ever ignore me.
i know.
that is what i told everyone.

she is a hardworking housewife.
she is a caring wife.
she is a encouraging mother.
she is always 24 hours there for the family.

one day, a health conscious lady like her slips into a coma because of a brain stroke which no doctors could explain why it happens. no sign of warning. none of the family members were there at home when she needs help, due to work.

was she in pain?
what is going on in her mind at that very moment?
did she cry?
did she know what was going to happen to her?

throughout the 11 days in hospital, she did not open her eyes even until the last second her life ended. not even once. every single day, all we recieved was bad news from the doctors showing us the reports and scans that concludes one thing: we are going to lose her. i felt like collapsing.

i talk to her, about everything i feel and share every secrets i have with her.
i sing to her, something that i wouldnt do infront of my family.
i hold her hands, the hands that nutured me to who i am today. i want her to know that im always by her side.
i would stroke her hair every now and then, giving her a peck on her forehead secretly.
that was the first and last time i ever encourage my mother.
the times i spent in the hospital, i did not dare to left my sight off her. i was too afraid to lost her.
i never know she would leave us so soon, just when her condition had slightly stabilised.

im the one, who discovered her death.

i panicked.
i prayed.
it wasnt going to happen, no, not that fast.
i kneeled beside her bed, crying loudly while using the remaining of my energy to grap her cold lifeless hand.

i felt alone. i felt like she had abandoned me, just like how i felt when she ignored me in my dream today. this might describe why i was so affected by the dream.

i remember being so freaked out when i saw her in the mortuary.
we were going to fetch her home. funeral.
that wasnt my mummy. she looked scary.
my heart felt so sour, so painful.

the hardest thing in life, is to let go of someone whom you love.

sorry boyfriend. all i want now is just a hug from you. nothing else.

2008-08-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

antibiotics taste damn yucks. some should know that i dont swallow pills, so normally i will break them into smaller pieces or chew them before swallowing. =(

afternoon i had a very unpleasant experience with the auntie selling fish bee hoon at pioneer mall. zzz. i said i want to TAKEAWAY twice upon ordering, yet she still put the fish bee hoon in a bowl. when i repeat i want TAKEAWAY for the third time, she actually glare and scold me. "want takeaway also dont know how to mention it earlier!" what the toot lah. i swear i almost wanted to reason it with her on the spot. zzz.

recieved my online shopping stuffs today. the dress look abit erm, not suitable for me. or, am i fat? whatever~ conclusion is im fat. somebody ask me out for running leh! ~.~

18 days to china. im going to miss mooncake festival, my birthday celebration, our 2nd and 3rd month anniversary. T.T please tell me china do sell green tea mooncake (both traditional and snowskin). any kind hearted soul willing to mail some mooncake to china for me? teehee.

2008-08-05T23:40:00.001+08:00

t kerm hmm. first thing i want to say is, i love my boyfriend super duper much!

this morning i had a fever after i woke up, and since theres no one at home so i just continue to lala in my bed. after i got off my bed at around 12 noon, i felt a sharp pain in my lower stomach. the pain persists even when im doing my short business in the washroom. ~.~ boyfriend came down specially after his school to bring me to the clinic despite having a long tired day. actually i didnt want to see a doctor because i thought it was just some minor sickness, thats why i didnt even call my daddy nor sister.

did an urine test after describing where my discomfort is to the doctor, i was annouced to have urine infection. =.= whatthefish. must be i didnt drink enough water hence lessen the trip to the washroom. tsktsk. oh yah, the doctor also mention that female have a higher chance of getting urine infection compared to male. that is because female's urine passage is only 5cm while male's urine passage is 27cm. tsktsk, totally not fair. anyway the doctor is really cute and funny, look very fatherly too.

buddy! takecare of yourself, and your boyfriend too. go see a doctor if you are really feeling unwell. see you real soon, after my exams but before my china trip. misses!

when we were collecting my medicine, i wasnt given the medicine to relieve my fever. boyfriend actually asked for it because i still have abit of slight fever. -.- end up i have to swallow another pill. thanks uh, boyfriend. anyway, im really touched. i know he is tired and he had a long day in school, somemore he live at woodlands (imagine the time to travel home) he still made an effort to come down. awww. thanks sweetheart, love you lots lots lots. muacks. xD

these were the photos taken last wednesday on my sister's birthday. my family and boyfriend went to the Boon Lay Raja Restaurant at Jurong East to have dinner. teehee, that was my favourite restaurant because i have been there for many functions and parties since young, and there sells my favourite mango pudding! my mummy love that place and their food too. =D

duck with mango sauce! and the skin is still very crispy too. oishi!

scallop with "dont know what" veggy. oishi!

prawns wrapped in tofu skin with mayo. oishi!

yam paste! wahaha! everyone's favourite!

and tada~ my favourite mango pudding! but their standard has slightly dropped, abit diluted now. =/

mango cake! oishi neh! the bakery name is oishi too. lol. that day samuel and kenneth specially accompanied me to beauty world to buy this cake. they are totally awesome and great man! thanks!

jiejie and jiefu.

boyfriend with my sister and jiefu.

dont know why my daddy so against taking photo on that day. not that hes angry or what, hes just shy. -.-''' somemore he is still as handsome as before. tsktsk. but i took snapshots of him. teehee.

the neoprints taken with boyfriend and qianhui.

on one saturday which i think was the 27th (July), boyfriend went to my mother side relatives to have dinner together with my family. it was a family gathering that day, aunts were making dumplings and fried prawn biscuits for dinner. what a happening day it was. the first time boyfriend meet my daddy, he went to my relative house for dinner. awesome. after dinner we played monopoly with qianhui and fritz.

then erm during our first month, i bought cheesecakes for boyfriend from secret recipe. but end up most of the cheesecakes went into my stomach. teehee. too delicious liao lah.

yesterday watched "The Mummy" with alvin weiyang hanyi samuel ky william at causeway point. quite a good show. ANDY NEVER GO LO! somemore hes the one who persuade me to go because i actually wanted to go home. ANDY!!! tsktsk.

2008-08-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

im still alive, just that i hardly have time to blog. well, my projects are done and im now left with my examinations which starts two weeks later. =/

anyway, regarding my tagboard thing, just ignore. i dont know who the hell tagged that, but im pretty sure it wasnt my dearest cousin qianhui. i can recognise the way she talk and write. and one thing for sure, pris and qianhui doesnt know each other at all. so, how could it be possible that pris will know a secret that qianhui told her.

to the funny but ridiculous tagger:
have fun tagging uh. i strongly welcome you to spam my tagboard since you are the second one who would ever do this. oh yah. just an advice. if you want to use other people's name to create a lie, please make sure that theres no flaws. in this case, qianhui is my primary 5 cousin and pris is my best friend since secondary school, i dont see any connection nor links between them. make your facts clear before spamming lies on my tagboard. cheers and see you again. HAHA.

2008-07-30T22:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to jiejie~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!~

had a super duper full dinner today with my family and boyfriend to celebrate sister's birthday. i think boyfriend got a really big shock with my enormous appetite. teehee. shall do more wrestling in order to burn away the fats that i had gained today. side note, MANGO IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH! -shall post the photos and details hopefully by this week-

someone accidentally poked boyfriend's right eye during his muay thai training. zzz. i think i saw blood clot in his eye which is so ohmygod scary. seems like he is bound to have small injury everytime he go for his training, someday he might even break his arm or leg. what a violent training. zzz. becareful lah sweetheart!

all right, shall get back to my study now. i have two tests, two presentations and two assignments left for this week. good luck adele! lalala~

2008-07-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH, SWEETHEART. -muacks & lalala-

2008-07-24T23:37:00.003+08:00

today, i had a very weird dream of boyfriend, my past and things that "we" had been through. i know boyfriend isnt happy about the dream i had, but this kind of thing is rather out of my control. hmm. mixed feelings.

last saturday boyfriend and i brought qianhui the lightbulb for a date. it has been a year since boyfriend and qianhui met. and the moment they met again, all the jokes and nonsenses began to start. =.= poor me! brought qianhui to Tampines Mall to buy her pencil box as well as buddy's birthday present.

went to find xueli buddy, her boyfriend and her friends at bugis's Ajitei. kinda had a mini advance birthday celebration for buddy. teehee. xueli and her boyfriend kept bullying each other, on the another side, boyfriend and qianhui kept teasing each other. overall, everyone had a fun time watching and laughing at the "entertainment" we had. LOL! what a nice gathering! buddy hope you enjoy your day, misses! =D

mine.

boyfriend's.

qianhui's.

group photos. qianhui, boyfriend, me, buddy and buddy's boyfriend.

after that, we went to kbox as requested by our xiao mei mei, although i really want to go eat popeyes! but we had a hell of fun time there singing and shouting in the room. wahaha!

i still prefer boyfriend with specs though. im going to make sure boyfriend grow fatter, at least fatter than me. and what the hell, he just told me he still have not eat his dinner yet! zzz. and, he is really teasing and pissing me off on the phone right now. ~.~

boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend! love you~

-to be continued-

2008-07-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUELI BUDDY!

2008-07-22T23:12:00.001+08:00

will update when im F R E E. this is when the exhaustion kicks in.

2008-07-17T19:05:00.003+08:00

frankly speaking, i dont understand why you want to rush the project when it is due like next next next week. i also have other projects on hand, which are much more urgent and important than this. dont forget, i still have to edit the video which requires plenty of hard work. cutting and joining of the video, and adding in subtitles arent easy at all. in fact it is very time consuming for me to do so. of course, i can rush out the report for you, if sub-standard work is what you are looking for. im not like the others who can work under stress, and i do want my report to be perfect. but the way you are pushing me, it is turning me off. and we are suppose to do our project today which was what you told us last week. although i forgot to bring my camera out today, but i was intending to rush home to get it after school ends. but seems like meixin and i werent the one who forgot that theres project today. after our lab test, everyone just disappeared off into the thin air. i apologize that i cant rush out my report before your dateline, im sorry. but for the rest, i dont think im in the wrong.

i choose not to show what i have written above, because im feeling much better now. -edited at 8.20pm-

im feeling so blue now, and of course, fucked up. but i will be okay, because that is what i promise boyfriend. and my dearest meixin is always there to cheer me up, especially today. been rather blur + tired + moody + frustrated the whole day. so, i decided to give school a miss tomorrow. i need a rest before im able to give my best shot for my studies again.

stress~ i dont even have time for my friends. i wasnt able to celebrate pris's birthday on the actual day. i havent been really chatting with xueli these few days. i dont even have the time nor energy to reply or talk to weijun and hiroshi. family, dont even bother to mention, i hardly have time to communicate with them. sometimes i didnt even reply to boyfriend's message, lucky he has been really understanding. oh man, have i changed? if i did, please tell me!

im so amazed that i actually type this whole chunk within 10 minutes. geez. all right, back to my assignments. tata~

2008-07-16T19:55:00.002+08:00

its elearning today, which means no school! but theres an individual assignment. =/

two tests tomorrow, inventory management and OPCS. wish me luck, thank you.

boyfriend's down with a cough. =( get well soon sweetheart! -muacks-

im so addicted to listening Power98FM now because of boyfriend's influence.

i touched my sister's tummy yesterday, it feels so much like a balloon (firm) and my little nephew is just right inside.

when my fringe and hair is longer, im going to highlight my hair.

all right, im bored. off to study again before boyfriend starts to nag again. oops. teehee. =p

2008-07-15T20:01:00.002+08:00

although my long fringe often piss me off, but i want my long fringe back now! CAN?! PLEASE?! i made a terrible mistake to cut my fringe last saturday. the auntie practically made a wrong cut and then, apologise to me. i mean, whats the use of apologising to me when my fringe is beyond redemption? maybe i should wear a cap to school till the day my fringe is back to normal. sigh sigh sigh.

meixin and i in the library doing project last friday. have a good last look at my fringe. geez.

my new fringe. though it seems okay, but its not. =.x

friday night watched "Hancock" with boyfriend and then supper at 900+ coffeeshop till like 2am plus. saturday went out dating with boyfriend. we were watching firework at marina square while qianhui was watching at the NE show. tsktsk. will be seeing her this saturday, bet she is damn excited to see boyfriend after one year plus. tsktsk.

we went to takashimaya, to raffles place, to citylink, to marina square, to clark quay, to central, and home sweet home. met xueli and her boyfriend at takashimaya too. weet weet~ i feel like chopping off boyfriend's finger soon, he always like to "poke poke curry poke" at my tummy. =.x

this is my boyfriend. he likes to act siao. and he just gave me a new name again the day before, adezhu. but i still prefers lowhuizhu. =/

went to the coffee club for some quiet moment. AND BOYFRIEND DONT BELIEVE ME THAT THERES TCC AT THE CENTRAL! blahblahblah. couldnt blame him for not believing me, because i told him that theres ben&jerry at clark quay which turns out to be haagen daz. teehee.

berry tiramisu and mud pie.

the crazy girl wallpaper in my boyfriend's handphone is his girlfriend which he stole it from her handphone.

today is my dearest pris birthday and seriously, serene and i felt really guility for not being able to celebrate her birthday today. so... we specially went down from NP and NYP to SP with a birthday cake to give her a surprise. thankyou boyfriend for showing us the way to FC1. and thankyou hiroshi for his help to keep pris waiting at FC1 for "him". yah yeah! we so love to surprise pris every year without fail! =D

ohmygod, im feeling so cranky now. it all started with xueqi~ bongolo xooqo! wahaha. hoozho love olvon!

2008-07-15T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA!

this post is specially dedicated to my best friend, priscilla. our friendship, it didnt come by easy at all. throughout the 6 years of friendship, we had misunderstandings and arguements. im glad that all had been resolved, because afterall, you are still one of my best friend. of course, together with serene we are the 454647 chromosomes! chromosomes shall always stick together as they cannot live without each other.

remember one day we were sitting outside the DNT room, discussing the name for our blog? we actually thought of using "happytreefriends" as the url. haha. but we ended up using 454647 chromosomes because of serene, the bio girl. i miss the time we would go out to have chocolate ice blended bubble tea after school, and lunching at 500+ market.

the three of us, we have always been watching each other to learn and grow as time goes. from the nerdy looks, tucked in shirt and long skirt, to long fringe all over the face, tucked out shirt and short skirt, to the current poly lifestyle we are having. we came a really long way to see our changes. both of you were there to support me when i had the most painful fall in my life, however depress and stubborn i was, you guys did not ever give up on me. your sweet and caring messages of concern held me through the hard times. im glad that you have finally found someone that truly love and dote on you, you are surrounded by happiness.

i know i have been pretty busy, till the extend that sometimes i dont even have time for you. i just want to let you know, you are always in my heart. 6 years of friendship, how can i possibly forget you that easily? trust me, although sometimes you really pissed me off HAHA, you still carry an important place in my heart. no matter how busy am i, you are always free to ring me up for a chat. and, no secrets between the three of us!!! teehee. and yah, thanks for constantly pushing me to move on and away from the past so that i can accept someone new.

lastly, both serene and i are really sorry that we arent able to celebrate your birthday on the actual day due to the increasing amount of projects assignments and tests on hand. but we promise you that we will give you a grand belated birthday celebration asap. sorry dearest.

remember our pact, we will attend each other wedding, be each other bridesmaid, be each other children's godmother and have high tea during our free time in future. chromosomes, and best friends forever.

2008-07-13T21:32:00.003+08:00

yesterday was our first official date. a pretty good one, and finally got the chance to hug boyfriend while watching firework. teehee. -i feel so brain dead to write anything because of the headache im having now-

been reading through a blog which everyone has been circulating around, life is definitely so unpredictable. to me, losing someone to death so suddenly without any sign of warnings, is the worst thing that could happen. im going to cherish the love from my boyfriend family and friends, i shant ask for more because it is already more than enough. like what shar said, you will need tissue if you are going to read this. . .

http://www.memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

been through something similar like her before. people have been telling me again and again that time will be able to heal my wounds. i can tell you, it is not true at all. time did not heal my wounds, instead, boyfriend's love was my bandage and medicine. thank you, doctor theng. muacks. =)

2008-07-10T19:28:00.002+08:00

T.T the flight details for my china trip has been announced.

25 August 2008
CZ 352 SIN – CAN 0800 / 1150 hrs
CZ 3346 CAN – WUH 1540 / 1715 hrs

06 October 2008
CZ 3343 WUH – CAN 1515 / 1645 hrs
CZ 351 CAN – SIN 1910 / 2305 hrs

PHOTOS PHOTOS PHOTOS!

simon sitting alone in the middle of the pavement outside takashimaya enjoying his food. =D

teck yi and shar taking photos and video-ing the whole process.

SO MANY PEOPLE! omg!

people staring at us. whats wrong picnic-ing uh?

group photo! from the left to the right, samuel ky me shar simon teckyi. =D

im so love sick now, and missing him have become my daily routine. tomorrow will be able to see my medicine, like so finally! love you always, boyfriend.

2008-07-09T20:08:00.002+08:00

im currently eating the chocolate cake that alvin gave me this afternoon. sinful but nice! thanks alvin. =D

today's social pyschology lesson was conducted at orchard road, and we are suppose to do experiment as part of our project. wahaha. our group chose to PICNIC ON THE PAVEMENT OUTSIDE TAKASHIMAYA IN ORCHARD ROAD! sounds damn thrilling and cool right?! i woke up early in the morning today to make some tuna and egg mayo sandwich. delivered some to boyfriend's school for him before meeting my classmates at orchard. teehee. his very first breakfast from me okay, somemore its made of love! =D

pictures on the next post, kinda busy now. =/

you used to be my priority, even after our breakup. time flies really fast, although im still being cheeky and playful at times but i have become more mature. i dont see a point why you always have to give me attitude when we talk, or even try doing things to annoy me. the way you talk, i dont even know what you are trying to do or what you actually want from me. forget it, im just going to leave it this way since from the start you wouldnt even tell me whats wrong.

boyfriend, you are my sweetest drugs ever. =)

2008-07-08T21:25:00.008+08:00

sunday was meixin's birthday so i bought a small birthday cake for her, because i suspect no one in my class remember her birthday. =/ im right anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIXIN DEAR!

xin xin making a wish!

surprised my meixin with a small cake when we are having lunch at alumni. nice to see her shocked face. wahaha! i love meixin~

me and my dearest xin xin! my only best girl friend in class! muacks!

2008-07-06T00:02:00.002+08:00

just want to see him one more time before being able to see him again after 5 days. forget it, afterall i still have to get use to not seeing him for 6 sundays.

2008-07-05T23:08:00.003+08:00

isnt it A D O R A B L E?! just like my boyfriend, teehee. i miss him so much. =p

2008-07-03T13:45:00.000+08:00

monday night my family and i went to Fort Canning to attend my cousin's wedding dinner (my father's side). frankly speaking, i dont even remember seeing my cousin before. tsktsk, i could only say that my father's side family is TOO BIG. anyway, their wedding video was pretty different from other videos that i had watched before, very hilarious. food was average though, and i didnt took any photos because... so many people... and im very shy. teehee!

my dress for the wedding dinner.

tuesday afternoon met up with weijun to the help desk for my laptop. boyfriend went to school to find us. yayadada~ weijun DEMAND boyfriend and me to treat him. tsktsk. nah, just joking. went to blahblahblah at the jurong west stadium to eat.

weijun keep on eating...

and eating...

yesterday went to Central at clark quay for lunch with boyfriend before sending him to his muay thai training. i bet he dont dare to take bus to clark quay anymore, because the bus journey was so long. lunched at waruku and the udon soup is ohmygod nice. muahaha.

im not going to show the photos that we took, because both of us looked so shagged. oh man, i hate school and projects. =( something random, andy is playing weerong's psp now. tsktsk. inventory management class ended early today and the class was so bloody noisy that meixin and i decided to come to the lab now, since our next lesson is here. geez. im feeling very weird now. lalala~

this bad guy here, he keep calling me "low hui zhu". NEVERMIND! i still love him.

mememe! =p

time to study again ~.~

2008-07-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

been meeting boyfriend for two days straight. have to spend more quality time with boyfriend now since i will be flying to china for 6weeks in less than 2months time. and that means, we would most likely be celebrating our 2nd and 3rd month through msn/webcam. =(

6 weeks = 42 days = 1008 hours = 60480 minutes = 3628800 seconds

ohmygod. how am i suppose to live through that 3628800 seconds? can i dont go for the china immersion trip? =/ nevermind, this shall be a test to our relationship and we shall overcome it.

shall update again, most probably either tomorrow or friday. been very busy and shagged from school and studies. =/

i still want you to continue holding my hands after i come back from china. i love you.

2008-06-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

last saturday, my family went to East Coast Park together with 4th 5th 6th aunt's family to have dinner. we had satays, prawn noodle, chicken wings, oyster egg and sambal stingray. muahaha! =D

i should had used flash... now the food looks so unappealing. tsktsk.

anyway, i have already told my family about boyfriend because i want an open relationship. and i bet my relatives know about it too, although i have only break the news to qianhui and fritz, but they were like talking and shouting "elvin here and elvin there" the whole night. called up boyfriend since qianhui and fritz wanted to talk to him. lmao, the conversation was a hilarious one. i remember qianhui telling boyfriend "you can be her friend, but you cannot be her boyfriend" when we first met each other during an outing with xueqi's classmates. and on saturday night, qianhui told boyfriend "you can be her boyfriend, but you cannot marry her" through the phone. ROFL!

after dinner we went to the beach to play until everyone was out of breathe. haha. we really had a good and fun time together. =D

me qianhui fritz and qianling.

yesterday i bought breakfast for boyfriend and, he helped me to reformat and install programmes on my laptop. weets. i so love love and love my laptop now! it looks so brand new, so organized, and so much faster than before. it is good to have a boyfriend who knows about computer stuffs since im such a computer idiot. -.- computer stuffs that boyfriend taught me yesterday, i practically forget the next second. teehee.

2008-06-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

went out yesterday with my friend after he finished his test. went to vivo city and caught the movie "wanted" at GV max. the hall and screen is indeed "max-ed", damn cool man. although the movie was quite interesting, but seriously speaking, i dislike bloody scene. ~.~ damn scary okay.

after movie went to have our late dinner. that pig ate burger king before the movie, and he ate again after the movie. -.-''' teehee, went to greenhouse cafe to eat and i still love that place a lot. =D

mushroom soup.

mine.

his.

peach cake! weets!

then my friend sent me home and we went to the playground to slack. lalala. my friend, then officially became my boyfriend. teehee. ~details of what happened shall remain as a secret between boyfriend and me~ ms adele has finally decided to settle down and get out of singlehood, like so finally.

❤ my boyfriend, elvin.

2008-06-25T20:29:00.003+08:00

what a horrible dream i had this afternoon during my nap. zzz.

i dream that i was in the hospital, together with my mum. shes sleeping so soundly that no matter how hard i tried to wake her up, she just wouldnt open her eyes. i just dont want to accept the fact that shes already dead. tears kept rolling down my cheek while i still keep trying to wake my mum up. then i called my boy-to-be and for no reason he chose to ignore me.

i woke up when my handphone rings, and i started crying crying and crying. the dream was so real, i practically can feel the physical contact that i had with my mummy. it is really bad enough to recall the horrible things that i faced one year ago, in my dream. and it is so heart wrenching that my boy-to-be ignored me when i need him so much. lucky, this is just a dream. *faint* but seriously, i miss my mummy real lots. =(

yearning for friday to come fast~ im going to do stunt. =D

after today's dream, i made a decision. im not going to regret, because im just following my heart.

2008-06-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

im so bored bored bored.

serene came over to my house for dinner last night and then, we went to the pasar malam to walk around. i miss her so much, and im really glad that we are able to catch up with each other, like so finally. =)

had been rather moody today. problems and more problems keep coming on for xueli. last minute project was being cancelled due to some damn stupid reason. im feeling rather tired and restless. shrugs. met up with weijun to chit chat since i end my school rather early today. that was when another problem pulls my mood even deeper down, and my heart was aching like shit. im rather disappointed, and i realised that there are so many things that i did not know. oh well, i miss weijun pretty much because its been ages since i saw him, and his stalker friend. haha.

one good thing that happened today. i taught alvin how to put in and take out contact lens at my house this evening. he took almost three hours to accomplish the task, well done and congrats alvin! you finally did it and overcome your fear! =D i think my jiefu should teach alvin in the first place instead of me, then he might not have to take three hours to learn. =x

i hope that i dont have to build a wall between us again.

2008-06-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

我们走了一大圈，不知不觉的，最后还是回到了对方的怀里。这，就是缘分吗？

You have stolen my heart ❤

2008-06-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

hiro hiro is in japan! =(

just went to the hospital to visit elsie jiejie, really hope that she will get well soon.

2008-06-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

cousins outing last saturday. caught "Kungfu Panda" at westmall, my big cousin's treat.

qianhui and me.

chermaine and me.

i look like a big mama with my kids here in this picture. -.-'''

joshua and qianhui.

qianling zoey and chermaine.

and we had a lot of fun playing with my camera's timer...

i dont know who wrote that, should be zoey i guess. zhizhi ah yi sounds so old. =/

yummy and beautiful cupcakes~

im bored im bored im bored. i cant sleep last night, thinking of something or rather, somebody. zzz. ~.~ but he pissed me off. tsk tsk.

someone played sushido with me till 4am and tsktsktsk. you should know what happens when one play with a sushido queen right. tsktsk. LOL! jkjk.

2008-06-15T23:30:00.003+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY!

yesterday my family had an advance father's day celebration for my dearest daddy at Tung Lok Restuarant inside Arena Country Club. we had this special Father's Day A La Carte Buffet and tsk tsk tsk, we really ate a lot.

Salmon Sashimi and California Maki. the salmon sashimi tasted so -.-''' as i dislike eating raw food. =/

Mini Buddha Jump The Wall. the soup was awesome! i still want more~

Chilli Crab. you know what, i ate the salmon sashimi together with this chilli sauce. ~.~ at least the sauce made the salmon tasted much better.

Beijing Roasted Duck. i can still remember the taste of the authentic Beijing Roasted Duck which i had it many years back when my family went for a holiday in Beijing.

Barbeque Roast Meat Platter.

Roast Pork Collar with Barbeque Sauce.

my ~~fierce~~ daddy and me. he rarely smiles ever since my mummy... you know what... kinda of miss her...

my family and my little nephew in my sister's tummy. =D

Sauteed Fish Fillet with Spring Onion and Ginger.

Sichuan Style Chicken with Dried Chilli.

Deep Fried Prawns with Crispy Oats. MY FAVOURITE! i can have it as my breakfast everyday!

Poached Chinese Spinach with Fresh Bean Stick and Garlic.

Sichuan Style Braised Beancurd with Spicy Minced Meat Sauce.

Ice Cream Puff.

we still had mini octopus, poached prawns, sauteed scallops and cuttlefish with spicy sauce , ostrich meat with wine, herbal jelly with honey and honeydew with sago cream. i can barely stand and walk after the dinner. =x

actually, im feeling rather angry now. do you know why is there this word and this illness call "DEPRESSION" in this world? this is because some people couldnt let go of things that they should. what is the point of brooding the same matter that makes you sad over and over again like it is your daily routine? your friends can lend you their listening ears, they can give you all their advices and concerns, they can help you in any way that you want. but, did you ever appreciate their help and concerns? did you even say a simple "thank you" to them, for things that they had done for you?

i had my toughest time too, and i believe everyone will have theirs, its just a matter of time. i lost my mum who brought me into this world, who give me all her care and concern in every ways she could, who teach and nuture me into someone i am today, who scold and beat me when i did something wrong, who used be to there whenever i need her, who would protect me when im facing problems. she never failed to give me the sense of security which i need. im always afraid of being alone especially in the night, but she would always be there to tuck me into my bed and sleep with me until im in my lalaland before going back to her room. and who do i lost her to? it is death that i had lost her to, and there is no way i am able to get her back. i lost her at the age of 16 and i still have a long way to go on, what am i suppose to do? rot and emo all day long? all my friends had their mother to look after them and showering them with love, what about me? i choose to stand up and learn walking without my mum, because with or without her i still have to go on with my life. afterall, my dad and sister are still here for me. im sure they dont feel well about the loss of my mum either.

one thing that i had learn is to let go. for my family and relationship, i learn to let go of things that doesnt belongs to me anymore. holding on isnt going to do any good to me nor him, and putting down actually brings me peace to my heart. enough of my story, the whole matter now is not about me.

yes, being stubborn is your character, but over exerting your stubborn-ness at your friends is getting a little overboard. being your friend, i accepted your stubborn-ness and try to help you within my circle of availability or ability. on some occassions, i have to make sacrifices just in order to help you. from the start, im did not side the both of you. he had his wrong, you had yours. im just trying to make the both of you to understand the other party's thinking. since no matter how hard i tried to help, and whatever i say are all wrong wrong and wrong. im washing my hands off this matter. you are tired, he is tired, and im tired too. how much time and saliva have i wasted just wanting you to get started for the preparation of your O level math? yet hundreds of my word cant compared to one of his. fine with me, as long as you start your preparation im rather relieved. sometimes i wonder, as a friend, how important am i to you? at least i know now, im not as important as your bestie. i felt that tinge of disappointment in my heart.

2008-06-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

Cousins and Father's Day outing. my dearest qian hui cousin took this video and asked me to upload it on youtube. =/

i need to have my sleep. nights and will update soon.

2008-06-12T20:50:00.001+08:00

all right, before i go back to my ghost whispering session AGAIN... damn, another 5 more episodes and im done with season 3! jennifer love hewitt is such a hottie.

right, so we cycle cycle and cycle until we reached changi airport. took a break but we didnt had a kit kat. LOL! took some group photos and all of a sudden the light at the resting place went off. eek!

somebody "zao geng" wor! muahahahaha!

big bully and small bully. tsk tsk.

zi lian and zi lian and zi lian!

finally we reached changi village, saw some ah gua on the way too. they are really damn hot and sexy okay! for a moment i really thought they are female until i heard their manly voice. tsk. shihui weiyang ky jonas and i went to have supper. i had roti prata and the curry was damn spicy. i cant seems to take hot and spicy stuff anymore. tsk. anyway, the mee goreng was so awesome that i helped shihui to finish hers. tsk. look at the pretty egg they fried! *clap hands* oh yar, weiyang got molested by a cat and its tail. LOL!

then we went back to meet the rest before cycling to Old Changi Hospital (OCH). im like the only one and the only girl who is so interested to go inside OCH to take a look. ~.~ so in the end, weiyang jonas and samuel accompanied me inside leaving the rest outside to take care of the bike. geez, alvin is the first one who volunteer to take care of the bike. LOL. using our handphone's torchlight, we started our adventures into OCH! im so so so excited okay! i didnt brought along my camera into OCH because you-know-what-lah, so i got some photos online that the professional photographers took.

OCH. we went in through the main door. the whole place looked really dark and eerie, it must have been ages since someone came to sweep the floor.

when we were right inside the building, broken glasses and wet cardboards are everywhere on the floor, broken aluminium air pipes are swinging in the air. we were very careful not to make any noise. weiyang brought us up to the second and third floor because i didnt want to go down the underground floor.

i saw some lifts which the doors was wide open. imagine you shine your torchlight into the lift and saw a figure there! omg! well, of course i didnt do such a stupid thing. somehow it reminds me of the movie "silent hill".

i think it was at the third floor where we walked through a pretty long corridoor, i felt ~~something~~ somebody behind us. althought the "somebody" wasnt very close behind us and was pretty far away from us, but i can feel its presence. i mean, the kind of real and strong feeling that you know a human being is behind you. samuel who was beside me kept turning his head too. but it seems like jonas and weiyang who was infront of us did not feel anything. =/

the type of long corridoor that we walked through. nevermind the shadow in the picture.

i dont think anyone would dare to use such toilet.

suddenly, andy messaged me and told us not to go out as there were polices outside with them. we decided to go out through the long way as we dont wish to be caught. we didnt went up to the rooftop because the rest warned us not to, as it is too dangerous since some drug addicts might be up there.

as we walked back to meet the rest at the main gate, weiyang told us his story on one of his visits to OCH. he is mad you know, he once went to OCH 4 times in a month. geez! weiyang and his friends bought a big torchlight, they went to the other block where it should be the operation block. they were in this particular room where they used their torchlight to look around and all of a sudden, the torchlight burst. wtf? nevermind. and anyway, the mortuary is slightly outside the OCH towards the west and only up to four bodies can be stored. for more information, please visit SPI website. tsk tsk.

while cycling back to ECP with the rest, i was being stopped by a police car since i was cycling very slow and far behind from the rest. i was question by the policeman about the trip into OCH because he is also very interested to go inside to take a look, but he couldnt due to his work! WTH! i thought he was going to bring me to the police station or something. ~.~

blah blah blah. finally i reached my limits, and alvin ky jonas took turns to fetch me. =x andy the pro cycled back while holding my bike. =x thanks a lot guys, especially jonas! owe you guys a super duper big favor! i know im very heavy. =x 辛苦了!

when we reached ECP everyone took a short nap. i woke up at around 6.15am to watch sunrise and the feeling is really great. if i can make a choice, i would want to die while watching sunrise! haha. everyone said they want to watch sunrise end up sleeping like a pig. tsk tsk.

andy the stalker caught me "emo-ing" at the beach!!!

i would like to go tioman again, just to watch sunrise. maybe australia gold coast or new zealand. =x anyone want to go? =/

shucks. i got "moon" burn on my face. i dont know what happened. ~.~

sand castle!

returned bike, macdonald breakfast with the guys since all the girls went home first, then finally home sweet home. =D

2008-06-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

i finally had my first night cycling with my classmates which was fun but painful and tiring.

one or two weeks before the common test, the lower part of my back bone starts to hurt. until recently, the pain starts to become really unbearable for me especially when i sit down. after browsing through the internet, i suspect i have slip disc. ~.~ there was an evening when i went out with my dad to the boon lay's NTUC, i carried 4 bottles of milk shower gel shampoo and walked all the way home. by the time i reached home, i almost felt that im already one leg inside the coffin. last saturday i was brought to a chinese medical clinic, and the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with my spine except that the muscles around it were sprained. tada~ i cannot carry heavy things for at least half a year to a year. my laptop is one heavy thing which i always hate to carry. tsktsk. the doctor gave me an OMFG painful massage which leads to blue black on my back, and my very first acupuncture! ~.~

on sunday im finally done with my 15 pages of marketing report. thank you very much to those who helped me a little by providing some informations to me about sushi tei. =D seriously i feel that vivo city and holland village are the only sushi tei outlets which provides great fine dining experience and service. i miss the cha soba and fried sushi roll. =(

monday afternoon, xueli came over to my house to dye hair for each other. damn my hair please. i can only see the color on my hair that is near the root. *faint* i think the black dye i used previously is too strong. yayadada~

met andy and jonas at JE mrt. we saw a very attention seeking kid who sit down in the middle of the train crying and throwing temper at his mother. LOL. andy became damn high on the train and he kept doing stunts that made us so ~.~ speechless. yayadada we took photos on the train!

geez, jonas dont want to take photo with me. =( he only take with andy lor! tsk tsk.

so sweet lah~ jonas looked as if he was waiting for andy to kiss him. =p

~~the super duper big bully~~BESTFRIEND and me. =D

reached ECP at around 9.30pm and grabbed something to eat before heading out. ! and the burger that andy bought was the most delicious burger i ever ate in my lifetime ! tsk tsk im hungry now. we played some games too and some of us had forfeit, including me.

jonas and alvin had their nose to nose session for 10 seconds. LOL!

shihui and my forfeit is to kiss each other cheek for 5 seconds. woots! weiyang had his tshirt taken off as his forfeit.

alvin! smoking is BAD for YOUR HEALTH!

shall continue tomorrow, time for some ghost whispering session now.

2008-06-09T17:59:00.000+08:00

that day went to sushi tei to eat for my marketing report. tsktsk. i will never ever go paragon's outlet again. bad service experience. =x

after 4e5 BBQ, some came to my house to ton and we watched movie. weets, i hate stalker!!! at 4.30am we went to pioneer mall macdonald to get breakfast! xueqi, next time wear your cookie monster pjyamas leh! lalala. i wore my hello kitty pyjamas and brought adela along to the macdonald. muahaha! attention seeker. ~.~ anyway, the new breakfast was awesome. =D

adela love macdonald breakfast! =D

bye, im going night cycling with my classmates soon~

2008-06-06T20:26:00.003+08:00

oh my god. oh my heaven. oh my jesus. oh my everything. oh my geez. oh my adela.

im trying my very best to refrain my curiosity and itchy hand to click on that link which would probably leads me to another nightmare. even ky got so freaked out after he watched that 14 seconds video. isnt that omfg?! but joel said that it wasnt that scary except that the ghost looked very fierce. all right, i shall just hear the comments first. click on the link before and scroll down to the bottom, look for "Creepy grudge ghost girl in the mirror!" =O

http://youtube.com/results?search_query=ghost+mirror&page=2

4e5 BBQ tomorrow night!

2008-06-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

while waiting for my ghost whisperer 3 to load...

here comes holiday! although i still have a 15 pages of marketing report to do. T.T after my last paper yesterday, went to watch Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian with alvin jonas ky samuel and hanyi at causeway point. the movie was awesome and with a very much exciting plot than the last one. if my boyfriend is prince caspian... LOL!

i slept the whole day today, with adela in her new yellow pyjamas. =D

fairytales. sometimes i wish that my life was just a fairytale. maybe something alike to the chronicles of narnia or even harry potter, maybe just something thrilling and exciting. well, i can have my fairytale life in my dream though. haha, with prince caspian, harry potter and ron weasley. woots, all the handsome guys in my dream. muahahaha! oh yeah, ron weasley (rupert grint) has a new movie coming out soon! *happylikeapig!* all right, im going back to my ghost whisperer!

2008-06-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

Mr. Juseleeno, born in 1960(reportedly still alive in 2008), is a Brazilian who has made many predictions, and MOST have come to pass, including Princess Diana’s death by car accident (which is instigated by someone near her and will probably unfortunately be written off as a car accident), 911 and the 2004 Indonesian tsunami. He sees the future in his dreams, and has an average of 3 to 9 such predictions per day. When he wakes up, he will write them down, and send warnings to those concerned. If it concerns only a normal individual, he will write a letter to warn him/her. If it is a famous person(celebrity, politician etc.), or matters concerning the public, he will not only send it to the individual himself/herself, but also related agencies, government, and media. He urged the media to publicise these predictions, but the reply always went along the lines of rejection for fear of arousing public panic.

Future predictions:

2008, July: There will be an earthquake in Japan, which will cause a tsunami of 30 plus metres high to occur as well.

2008, 18th September: An earthquake with magnitude of approximately 9.1 will rock China , simultaneously causing a tsunami of more than 30 metres to occur, resulting in the deaths of more than 1 million people. Although this huge earthquake will happen after the Olympics have ended, there will be a series of relatively smaller earthquakes occurring in China before the huge earthquake. The China government, which is more concerned with the success of the Olympics, will most likely neglect to employ appropriate cautionary measures, thus the high casualty rate. If the China government does not publicise the occurrence of these minor earthquakes and evacuate people, the number of deaths will be as predicted.

2008, 17th December: terrorist attack in America

2010: The temperatures in some countries of Africa could be as high as 58 degrees Celsius, and there will be a serious shortage of water.

2010, 15th June: The New York Stock Exchange market will fail, causing an international financial crisis.

2011: The research on the treatment of some cancers will be completed, but a new life-threatening virus will appear. People who are infected will die after only approx. 4 hours of coming into contact with the virus.

2013, 1st – 25th November: Research on treatment of cancers, except for brain tumors, will be completed. An earthquake, caused by volcanic eruptions, will happen on Bahama Island of the Canary Islands. A gigantic tsunami of roughly 150 metres will result. America mainlands, Brazil etc. will be affected, with the tsunami pushing into the land as far as 15 to 20 kilometres. Before the occurrence of this gigantic tsunami, the sea/ocean water levels will sink by about 6 metres, and large flocks of birds will start to migrate.

2014: A small planet that has been gradually closing in on Earth might eventually collide with Earth, and this collision, if come to pass, will affect the survival of humans as a whole.

2015: By the mid of November, the average temperature of Earth could be as high as 59 degrees Celsius. Many people will die from the overheat, and international confusion and terror ensues.

2016, April: A huge typhoon will invade China, causing massive damage. The 43rd USA president, George Walker Bush, will enter the hospital, and faces a life or death situation.

2026, July: A super earthquake will occur in Sans Francisco, and it will be named “The Big One”. Huge damage to surrounding areas. Many volcanoes will re-activate, and the height of resulting tsunami will be more than 150 metres.

Mr. Juseleeno made known his predictions in hopes that people will take heed of his warnings, so that these disasters may be avoided. He hopes there will be a major change in the thinking of people’s mindsets in the time period 2007 – 2008. One factor will be the environmental issue of global warming, which is more serious than what some meteorologists assume.

holy bible! i dont wish to die just 11 days before my birthday which is also chinxiang's birthday. if the prediction for the Japan come true in July, im going to opt out from the china study trip. time to go jogging again after my last paper, since im admitting the fact that im getting fatter. and im going to get a new hair color, maybe something bright. tada~ im off to bed!

2008-06-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

seems like daidi and sushido are my only entertainment now. i just won 23 out of 25 rounds of sushido game. woots! muahaha. and playing daidi on saturday night at west coast park was damn cool okay. in each 3 rounds, i get a pair of 9 then a pair of 2 and lastly a pair of J. muahaha. i didnt went for my mummy's side family BBQ, since i got tons of notes left unread.

im left with one paper now which is inventory management. T.T today's OPCS paper was such a gone case one, the theory parts was more difficult than the calculation parts. good game! i spent the last half an hour thinking of what rubbish should i write just to fill up the blanks. ~.~ good luck classmates, for our last paper on wednesday. and 15 pages of marketing report to get it down by this weekend. *faint*

chocolate chocolate chocolate! oh yar, never ever buy the green tea mcflurry from macdonald! i feel like i was being conned while watching how the green tea mcflurry was made. a few scoop of green tea powder being added to the vanilla ice cream and stirred it with the machine. tada~ green tea mcflurry like WTF?! i also can jolly well make one at home myself! duh~

my favourite song "Stolen" by dashboard confessional. ghost whisperer should add this song into one of their episodes. you have stolen my heart~

2008-05-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

I HAVE BEEN CERTIFIED BY "BUCKBERRY" THAT I HAVE MOVED ON FROM MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP.

give me a round of applause please. because he used to think that i wont moved on for this lifetime. better be late than never.

2008-05-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

"Fragile" by Delta Goodrem

Six thoughts at once I can't focus on one
Seven days a week but my life has just begun
So caught in emotion and I'm overcome
As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile

In six thousand years what will this mean
Words from the heart or a melody
So caught in emotion and I'm overcome
As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile

If people can see right through my eyes
Like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run
I'll not hide this is how I feel inside

A little fragile
A little fragile

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile

uhh, a piece of pretty nice and soothing song just like "going crazy" by natalie. today i make breakfast for my 7 BFs and meixin. muahaha. next time they shall make for me. its really freaking tired to make 8 sets of breakfast early in the morning lah! but william never go to school today... so i ate his share! nevermind lah, he already has his constant breakfast make with love from his huishan. =p happy or not, life still goes on. im so so so tired of this now.

time to study!

2008-05-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

im just speaking out what i feel. i dislike morning "surprise" visit nor do i like to talk during the 1st two hours right after i woke up. i do want to talk to you about certain matter but definitely not during an impromptu visit. the least you could do is at least to give me an early notice. what if im already on my way to school? i was really sleepy and sick, but i couldnt just leave you outside while i continue sleeping right? and i choose not to speak out of my mind today is because i dont want to talk to you when i am in a very pissed off and brain dead mood. i dont see a point to talk in that mood and rush everything through which is going to make things even worse. slow and steady win the race, some thing arent just not meant to be rushed.

im so sleepy, and my sore throat is getting worse. exams are around the corners, im feeling the stress. 15 pages of principles or marketing report is killing my brain cells. last but not least, he is really making me worried. T.T

and friends, im not emo-ing. duh. if writing down my thinkings about my past is wrong, im really speechless. i think about my past, i write it down at my blog, but that doesnt mean im not moving on and still brooding over it. things are not going to come alive again once they are dead, i understand. sometimes, by listening to a song can let you sink into deep thoughts and memories are bound to be thought of. as to that friend of mine, i totally shows no interest at him in the beginning. but even as a normal friend, i dislike being lied to because it really takes me some time to fully trust somebody. i hope you understands.

2008-05-26T00:00:00.003+08:00

i feel like im an idiot. a naive one, who actually believe in you and your words. i should wake up from the dream, things are not going to be liked it used to be half years ago. after so much i have gone through, i cant believe my heart is still so fragile. i should learn to grow up and put things down.

i break his heart, he breaks my heart, i break his heart, i break his heart, he breaks my heart, i break his heart, he breaks my heart, i break his heart, i break his heart, he breaks my heart.

retribution uh. since im the heart breaker. i give up.

im going to teach xueli how to cook, and after that im going to quit cooking and baking. xueli, jiayou on ben ben! 爱心餐!

im going to bed now, fever is going to hit me soon. and i shall put on my ear piece to sleep. may i lost my memories when i wake up tomorrow.

vulnerable.

2008-05-25T19:35:00.003+08:00

sunday is so boring. and i miss you so... never mind, you dont understand either. i dont want any false hope from now on.

it has been a few days since i started eating chocolate from morning till night. evelyn jiejie bought that pack of Hershey chocolate from USA is so addicting. ohmygeez! exams are coming. i need a constant supply of chocolates during this period of time, if not i would really break down. having too much problems to deal with these few days. sucks.

for shinchan crayon lovers, watch this! =D

http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-96423/Shinchan-The-Adult-Empire-Strikes-Back-Movie-Part-1.html

for sadists and emo freaks, play this! =x damn gross, quite a lot of my friends have been playing this to de-stress. G.G

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/439144

i just had my eyebrow plucked, for the first time. painful.

i was so lost without you, thank you for leading my life into a piece darkness. even till today, you are still doing the same thing to me, that is to stab me in my heart. despite the fact that i want to be by your side, you never want to open your heart to me. im not sure if i know you anymore, are you still the one i know in my memory?

i was so lost without you, yet you abandoned me twice. im trying to find a way to keep the pain away. in the end, i still got hurt again. disappearance is the best choice to escape from reality isnt it.

i was so lost without you, how am i suppose to be strong if you arent strong either. you are just making me to doubt the choice that i have made.

there are too many heart breakers out in this world, and im one of them.

2008-05-25T01:31:00.001+08:00

life... busy but boring. people... pissed me off and annoying. end of the post.

2008-05-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

i was planning to open my mouth and talk, but then i realise some truth. dont be so contridicting, and assume that one matter doesnt got to do with you at all.

went to pioneer mall in the evening with hanyi and ky for an ice cream cone. i was whinning for one when i see the macdonald's staff going around giving the kids a balloon! ky asked the staff for the last balloon since im the only big kid left. the macdonald staff was rather shocked though. yeah woots! i got a HAPPY MEAL BALLOON! muahaha! and i carried it around pioneer mall. =p

tomorrow will be my last IS lesson, cant wait for it to be over! and, let me see how long are you still going to hide it from me.

2008-05-20T14:26:00.003+08:00

went out on a date with joel and alvin because it was the 19th! our monthly meeting. and, xueqi didnt turn up! =( after our lunch, we decided to catch Made Of Honor which was suggested by me. everyone should catch it! it was damn awesome, and i totally love the movie! a excellent piece of comedy and romance movie, the ending was so touching and sweet. =D

then went out on a date with elvin. caught Over Her Dead Body, very nice too! =D something similar to ghost whisperer too. after dinner i think i gain another few pounds again. -.-'''

acting acting acting.

everyone except effia.

2008-05-19T02:12:00.004+08:00

hmm. im rather okay now, after a day of chaos at andy's house. went down to his house in the afternoon to be their (andy celest effia hanyi) cameraman for their IS project. lmao! the whole procedure was very fun and enjoyable! hahaha. after my job as their cameraman, i became the video editor. cut and edit the video, adding in subtitles and credits, etc etc. worked from evening all the way till 5am. =O i want my pay!

all right, i sort of "离家出走" yesterday as i stayed overnight at andy's house and, since i wasnt intending to go home either. and andy's mummy had a mini heart to heart chat session with me. she's a very nice lady, sounded like my mummy too, and i feel much better after talking to her. played daidi and dota with andy ky and hanyi. oh yah, ky and hanyi stayed overnight at andy's house too because of me. =x hehe, thanks for the accompanion guys. anyway i really laugh a lot yesterday because of the video. machiam mr bean's video. LOL! i hope my tearing and emo-ing part didnt scare you guys off. =x

by the way, call me the Diamond Three Queen! i have been getting diamond three for most of the daidi game. -.-

finally i got the video done at 5am! was feeling damn happy because i feel the sense of satisfaction and it was time to pig! slept all the way till 11am i guess, and woke up to see hanyi still playing game with his laptop! he is such a sicko man, he had been gaming for the whole day and had only two hours of sleep! *chui* after i woke up, we continued playing daidi to decide who to wash the plates later. okay, its me, im the loser! haha. oh yar! i met songling at andy's house last night and most likely we will be seeing each other again at 4E5's class BBQ this coming june holiday.

had a mini celebration in school for hanyi and weiyang. i bought the walnut mocha cake. awesome. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS!

my fringe. ~.~

i want to watch made of honor!!!

2008-05-17T03:01:00.000+08:00

uhhh, here comes the rebel and devil side of me. but i just want to vent everything out.

though what the consultant said makes me feel very angry but still, i think shes right. if i dont take her advices to improve my sensitive skin, i might as well stop recieving her consultations. you dont know how i feel about my sensitive skin, so kindly think about how you feel about your nose and how much money had been put in to salvage it. i had enough of criticism from friends relatives and my so-called god brother. _l_ a smile from my face which i use to reply those criticism isnt going to heal the wounds in my heart. even if its only a joke, i still dont feel good about it. hurtful. dont try comparing me with that cousin of mine who has severe skin problem, unless you only want to salvage mine when my condition become the same as his. _l_

compare compare compare. you people only know how to compare, dont you have other better things to do? i still have not forget what happened on the 7th day of mummy's death. dont ever touch on my nerve, because i will release all the hatred that has been isolated deep down in my heart. i hate you people because that is how the hatred comes from. mofos. _l_

frankly speaking, i dislike living under one roof with the both of them, im sure they felt the same way too. basically, i hate it. maybe i should start looking for job to move out of this house and live on my own. _l_

dont assume that everything you do is right, because i have never assume everything i do was right either. rules and regulations, dont ever try using it on me because its not going to work. and you should be proud of something, you once ruined someone's first relationship and that throws her to hell forever. _l_

no matter how angry i am, i have never use the word CB before. and i just used it, so friends should know angry i am now. frankly speaking, i can scream out a whole chunk of vulgarities now. how fortunate am i to have a family who dont even trust me? i admit i was rather lazy and slack during sec 1 2 3, but i spent most of the time in school to study during sec 4 to prepare for my O level. if you think that i have been lying to you people and going out to have fun, then be it! at least i have friends who believe me. and when i say im still single means i dont have any boyfriend! duh. do you know it is fucking irritating to keep asking and asking? so what if im going to have a boyfriend? i know what im doing now and im not going to fuck anyone until im married, with a marriage certificate.

this time im not going to say sorry anymore because i have already reached my limits. i know im rude, but i really cant hold back my anger and tears anymore.

watched with alvin and ky. nice one, everyone should watch this because it really makes you laugh like mad. =D

2008-05-14T21:36:00.003+08:00

been rather busy these few days. ~.~ and tired. i slept from 11pm+ till this morning 10.30am, and yet im still feeling very exhausted. ~.~ i went to trim my fringe yesterday afternoon, listen well i wanted to just trim it! and i told the hairdresser to maintain my fringe below my eyebrow! guess what?! she CUT all the way above the eyebrow! damn damn damn wtf. ~.~

food... is my source of energy. im talking rubbish.

2008-05-10T23:59:00.004+08:00

i "stole" this photo from pris's blog. =p

i just had a bite on the cake i made yesterday, all right i had A SLICE! awesome. personally i feel that this was the best attempt ever. i was actually pondering whether it will turn out nice because im using the cup cake's recipe which the mixture is suppose to be placed in CUPS. hmm, the cake did not rise as much as the one i made at isabelle jiejie's house, i suppose it got to do with either the baking powder or the oven. but still, it tasted pretty nice. =)

xueli, cheer up okay. i know life has been pretty unfair to you, but since when this world has been fair to everyone? dont brood over it anymore since its not worth it anymore, we didnt expect the outcome to be like this too. both of you are stubborn, that is what i can say. both of you seriously need to calm down and talk about this matter face to face, no matter what the final answer is. he is selfish i must admit, but afterall he has his own reason. if he choose not to put down his dignity, no matter what we said will still be useless. i know its hard and difficult for you, but i believe no friend of yours want to see you feeling unhappy all day long. you still have a great future ahead of you, and no one can predict what is going to happen then. so, you have to continue walking down this path of yours to unveil your future be it good or bad. there are many people out there in the world who dont even have the chance to live on and make their dreams come true. being able to live on we are considered lucky, we should cherish our life and live on happily. look at my mum and cousin's friend's case. you still have plenty of important tasks ahead of you that got to do with your future, dont let this setback ruin your future again. im sure you want to get into poly, so the main focus now should be your maths. although you may not heed my advices, but this is all i have to say. remember, chances dont come twice.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it gets harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lost someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend being upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get it back again.
Dont be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.
We know that we are going to die one day, so why not start your life now.

sigh. really friends, cherish your life. life is never too hard nor bored if you think on the brightside. if you think your life is hard or bored, i can give you a list of people who are living much worse than in hell. im really worried about that two friends of mine, because they are important to me.

2008-05-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

my group in purchasing management. samuel the leader, me the slacker, andy the bully. i think samuel is going to scream at andy and me someday because we keep arguing and fighting. tsk tsk.

im a good girl because im doing my work. xD

weiyan is our class new magicial magician and he really knows a lot of tricks. amazing but true! be it in the class, the bus stop or on the bus he just cant help but perform magic to us. LOL.

mini class outing at bukit batok's pizza hut. sob! meixin did not went with us. =( anyway, saw eyin there too. =)

i turn vegetarian today. =O veggie soup + 3 slices of veggie lovers + 1 slice of hawaii supreme. =O

we actually used up the whole bottle of cheese between 4 people. =O

after our lunch, we played the game "Ouch Orbi Orbi" in pizza hut. i tell you, its the most painful game i ever played! damn what the fuck although it is fun. im too lazy to explain the rules of this game, so the main objective is to be chosen to hit hard on the person's leg sitting either on your left or right. -.- you should see how "beautiful" my leg is now, full of red lines and blue black. imagine how hard andy and ky hit me?! never mind, andy had his retribution because his injury is much worse than mine! muahaha because hanyi and i did a very "good" job. well done and hi-5 hanyi! and guess what, the more i look at the red lines on my left leg, it looks really like a tic tac toe. thanks uh andy!!!

poor andy, changing place with others is still not a wise choice either. here goes you painful moments that i have captured for you. remember to thank me okay. =p

mini class photo. =DDD

after that i went to find priscilla to get some baking stuff because she wanted to bake a cake for her mummy. mother's day is on the sunday yo. guided pris along the way and i must really say, she is really a excellent student. =D must praise pris because she helped to do the washing too. and holy bible, i broke my record by baking four cakes in a single day! we baked from 4pm to 8.30pm including doing the icing. im so exhausted right now. hectic day. saw my shuai ge two days in a row, damn happylikeapig. lalala. so now i announce that, pris is also my best baking partner other than serene! we are going to invent green apple sponge cake someday! =DDD

an advance happy mother's day to all mother in the world. going to show off my cake to my mummy tomorrow morning. =DDD

2008-05-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

i wonder, how fragile can life be? how unpredictable can our world be? when we flipped through the newspaper, there will always be numerous reports about death caused by accidents.

that day, my dad told me to be careful when crossing the road because he saw a report in the newspaper about a girl being knocked down by an on-coming car while she was on her way to school. i did read about the news too. little did i expect, the girl was actually my cousin's friend. she did not make it in the end.

no one would have expected this tragedy to happen. no sign of warning, nothing at all. cruelty, does god know the meaning of this word? the pain of losing someone, it feels like you are being ripped apart. i went through this before, i know the kind of feeling. you will feel very lethargic to do anything, your brain feels so dead that you might not even know what you are thinking.

on the brighter side, since we had went through the toughest time of our life, life is going to be better even though there are ups and downs. and we do know that we are strong. =D as for the reckless driver, i believe she had her retribution because she will be living in regrets for the rest of her life. that is the greatest punishment. everyone come and left this world, its a life cycle and no matter what we cant stop what we have to go through. so why not cherish your life and the people around you starting from now, and live every day happily. dont forget, there are other people out in the world suffering much more than we do.

2008-05-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

哭一哭，想一想，一觉醒来就雨过天晴了。

pretty angry and upset yesterday because of nnn. i once had a friend who did almost the same thing as nnn, except that my friend's case was much more serious. my friend broke the trust and friendship between us because of what he did. i feel like i was being used, or an imaginary friend who can be seen only when he needs someone to talk to. when things get better for him, i become so invisible despite standing right infront of him. i see nnn as one of my best and close friend, somone who i can tear away my mask and talk nothing but the truth to him. what happened yesterday, maybe i was abit over-reacting but i also have my own reason. its like, if any of my friends tell and share with me about their problem, i will occasionally ask them how was it until their problem are solved. i find it very idiotic to ask my friend that question when their problem are already solved. actually somehow i already know what happened, i just want you to tell me personally, at least before i ask you. my 6th sense quite good okay! somemore, its also not a bad news, good news should share with me mah! and i wouldnt have care so much if its just a normal or hi-bye friend.

okay lah im already okay with this now. chinxiang's words does make sense, after much thinking, it isnt really your fault. so, im sorry.

andy the bully took some photos with my camera today. anyway, i have peaced out with him. i really cant stand it when someone smiles at me because i have the tendancy to smile back even though im angry. -.-'''

all the good students doing their tutorial except me and meixin. ~.~

because we were playing viwawa's sushido!

we obaka ourself. -.-'''

xin xin and me. =D

our photographer took a self-portrait of himself, and since he didnt delete it away from my camera... =p

2008-05-07T23:26:00.001+08:00

cool, im done with my photography presentation which was a pretty last minute work. solo presentation. =O since i was the first one to present, i spent the rest of the hours playing pac man. i know its rude not to listen to others' presentations, but im really bored and tired. i can barely sleep yesterday night. headed down to JP after 5pm for a quick zinger meal with hiroshi for some catching up session. mind you, that zinger meal was the first meal i had for the day. ~.~

im really believing what i have always tell xueli, when you treat someone as your best friend he might not treat you as his best friend.

2008-05-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

and yes i do know.

2008-05-06T20:08:00.004+08:00

been pretty unlucky today. shrugs. very unlucky. i suppose its my black tuesday day. i had nose bleeding so suddenly, then i sprain and pull my left arm's nerve, coming next was a mild headache, now both of my hands smell like cream cheese, then weijun made me so angry that i ignore him just now, and my $15.60 flew away with a severe headache which is trying to piss me off, lastly i missed my step and fell into a hole. ~.~

xueli uh, keep laughing at my misfortunate especially when she saw me going down into a hole so suddenly. ~.~

lalala. i feel like an idiot.

2008-05-05T20:43:00.002+08:00

lmao. today is the most happening day i ever had since year two started.

while walking towards canteen 3, we saw one of the vending machine's door wide open. www and nnn took some packets of sweets out of the vending machine without anyone noticing. =O the man is really stupid to leave the door ajar while he went back to his van to get the goods.

lll accidentally broke the "almost broken" chair in the lecture theatre. =O

today was the first time i met so many "long time no see" friends during the journey to school. =O

xueqi and hiroshi both messaged me at the same time, mentioning about the same person. =O

i had the urge to punch the lecturer in his face because he is too long-winded! i know it sounds very wtf. but he actually spent 30 minutes explaining the last slide of the presentation, and we were released 15 minutes later. imagine sitting in the same lecture theatre for 4 hours already. -.-

2008-05-04T19:25:00.001+08:00

went to Singapore Botanic Garden yesterday early in the morning for my photographing assignment. and among all my friends, ky is the only one who is willing to go "sun-tanning" with me. the weather was really hot and the sun seems very determine to turn me into charcoal. T.T the only thing that i was interested with in the botanic garden was the swans.

went to holland village after that and while waiting for xueli, we went to eat Cold Rock Ice Cream. i had cookie&cream ice cream + mango ice cream + brownies + rocky road candy. tasted pretty weird but nice, all right im weird.

now i know that my tongue is not long. LOL. random lah.

finally xueli came! and we went to Sushi Tei for lunch because i was craving for sushi. muahahaha. must try their fried seafood roll, very nice to eat especially with wasabi! then xueli and i went to paya lebar to walk walk before heading home. damn tired. =(

today woke up late and went for brunch at Harry's Bar at Rail Mall. next time im going to bring serene and pris there to eat. i want to celebrate my birthday at Fort Canning Park's clubhouse leh. T.T

2008-05-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

i always love and hate friday because lesson starts at 8am and ends at 12pm. after lesson went down to meet pris and hiroshi for lunch at SP's macdonald. at first i was quite reluctant to go because i dont wish to meet those three people in SP. ~.~ nevermind. heard some stuffs about someone already made my blood boiled. went down to IMM alone while waiting for pris to end her lesson before heading to bugis together. both of us done manicure and pedicure since there was an offer. then we went home because it was my turn to cook dinner, and pris actually dont believe that i can cook. T.T

went down to Fort Canning Park's clubhouse to chill and play pool after my dinner. awww, im starting to love the environment there. nice place to go dating and hangout with friends. Effia, class outing there please! played pool with two adults and i won two games out of four, i swear its purely beginner's luck but they dont believe. -.-

blah blah blah. i hate people who keep saying that im not moving on from my past. hey dude, no matter how far i have been moving, as a human there will be some occassions when i recall about my past. and i dont dump someone without any valid reason, if im really that kind of bad person in your eyes then be with it. dont believe your own assumptions when you didnt get to know the whole story. do you even know you always come and go just when my feelings fade and come back? i bet you dont even believe it. i cant hand my heart over to someone who dont even trust me. and hear this now, IM STILL SINGLE WITHOUT ANY TARGET. brrrr, anyone fancy drinking a cup of hot bloody drink.

all right, ky wanted me to mention his name in my blog. here it goes:
ky nudged me in msn when he caught me eating bread while doing tutorial during purchasing management.

2008-04-30T12:00:00.003+08:00

im posting out the rest of the photos i took in taiwan, i may missed out some cause im lazy to upload the rest.

hot custard puff straight out from the oven. the warm custard matches well the crispy skin. awww, i miss taiwan. =(

and i saw my favourite macaroons but it was out of stock. =(

hot plate noodle. simple and nice.

i think this is pork chop hot plate. if singapore sells this kind of stuff, how nice would it be.

and we took the bullet train. nice experience and it was really fast. wooosh. of course, the ticket are quite expensive too. =/ i like the way the taiwanese would let the passengers to exit first before entering the train in order. unlike singapore, tsk tsk tsk.

on the very last night in Xi Men Ding, i finally found the Toilet Restuarant. but as it was already 9pm, they have already stop taking in orders for main course which we are left with the dessert section. imagine us sitting on the toilet bowl eating ice from toilet bowl. yucks! hahaha.

had steamboat at the restuarant below our hotel. average lah.

my dinner on the plane. i was feeling rather uncomfortable on the plane that day. shrugs. so i thought a small cup of red wine might do me some good and put me to sleep. and everything got worst, im experiencing the pain which is something alike to gastric pain. T.T no more haagen dazs ice cream with red wine anymore. and i stopped eating satay beehoon and papaya milkshake since last year because, i vomitted 8 times in a single day and was admitted to hospital. T.T

im having sore throat again. hooray! your last sentence hurts, because it wasnt true at all.

2008-04-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

blah blah black sheep, today was such a hot and stuffy day. global warming, i suppose. =O

just watched the last episode of 聊斋奇女子之连城. awwww... it was so touching. =(

2008-04-27T15:33:00.000+08:00

frankly speaking, 2008 has been a pretty good year for me. despite being bullied by andy everyday, school was fun. looking back now, i still couldnt believe what i had gone through during 2007. its like a dream, and a nightmare. my mummy used to be my closest family member, afterall she used to be at home everyday taking care of the family. i really admire my mummy, in terms of her character and personality. i just miss her very much, and of course her cooking. i used to enjoy "stealing" food from the kitchen when my mummy was taking a shower after cooking. my mummy can cook a variety of soups which is so nourishing and delicious. i remember frying pancakes with her for lunch just a few weeks before she was admitted to the hospital, we really had so much fun together. actually, i do regret signing the three months contract for my work after O level examinations. because of money, i sacrifice and exchange the time that i could have spend it with my mummy and love for money. my first relationship, was one that was so hard for me to forget and get over with it. he taught me many many things throughout the relationship. i couldnt have achieve at least a B for my O level mathematics if it wasnt because of his coaching during that few months before my examination. my classmates should know that my mathematics sucks to the core. signing the contact was a wrong move, a contridicting move. i never wanted him to spend any unncessary money on me, i just want want him to spare some of his time for me. i dont mind spending hours travelling just to meet him for even 1 minute. the apple pie incident, i went back not because of the apple pie. many like pris had asked me whether its really so hard to put it down, my answer is yes and i dont know why. uhhh love is so troublesome and complicated. now that they are gone, occasionally i still feel empty without them in my life. i dont expect that they will ever come back to me again, but as long as they are happy im satisfied.

sometimes, i just hope that you can talk to me nicely for once. a peaceful chat with a hello and goodbye. its just my wishful thinking hahaha. 无非想要放下你,却还是挂念你. goodbye.

cool, at least i have voice out my thinking like so ... finally. maybe leaving to China for 6 weeks might do me some good. Adela shall go with me to China and we shall celebrate our birthday there. woots. lets hope that andy and chinxiang wont push us down the yangtze river. T.T

im so looking forward to the arrival of my niece/nephew in about 5 months time, hopefully he/her will have the same birthday as me. but sadly, if my china trip is confirmed (and im not the one on the waiting list) i wont be able to witness the arrival of my niece/nephew. in future, he/she shall call me "xiao yi" and not "ah yi" or "er yi". and he/she would better not fight with me for Adela or i shall wack them! =)

2008-04-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

went to Isabelle jiejie's house yesterday night to bake cupcakes with her other friends. Agnes jiejie was the one who taught us how to bake cupcakes, and she claims that she is only sixteen years old. LOL. im the youngest there. muahahaha. =DDD

Anges jiejie taught us a fast and efficient way to separate the egg yolk and egg white. its all about science.

its really fun to do icing! mahahaha! i always wanted to learn to do icing. =DDD

my sister, Isabelle jiejie, Anges jiejie, Grace jiejie, Irene jiejie and my workpieces. i know, it doesnt really seems appealing lah. =x

then went back to Ngee Ann's Halo bar. found and disturbed ky samuel ken and hanyi who were having camp these few days. its really very scary to walk alone in school when its already like 12am. somemore, i walked alone from Halo bar all the way to Canteen 2, met a few cats on the way there too. geez. lucky they accompanied me back to the bar. =x but, night walk in school was fun! =DDD

2008-04-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

xueli came to my house last night and she was the first one who get to see the things that i bought from taiwan. actually i dont know why people seems to be more interested in what i buy than what i eat. -.- my sole purpose of the trip was to eat eat eat and eat, then shop.

okay lah, bought dresses tshirts jackets bags stockings skirt belt.

as i still got some extra cash, i bought 5 hairpins which i dont think i will be using it for 100NT (less than S$5). -.-'''

card stickers, camera and sanitary holder, two magazines which i throw in my last bit of taiwan money for it.

twenty. can it ever come back again?

2008-04-18T15:39:00.002+08:00

went to kbox just now with andy alvin and ky. lalala. sore throat.

something i missed out during my TW trip because i couldnt find the shop. chickenmacnuggetlah!!! i want to eat!!! =(

Mr. Baoz: http://www.mrbaoz.com.tw/

2008-04-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

had three hours break today since tutorial was cancelled. whole class (except jave jolene amirah fiza L) went to beauty world for lunch, mini class gathering session. class photo from alvin's phone.

my new interest, collecting a bottle of Absolute Vodka from Singapore DFS. =D

2008-04-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

i used to think that i am very fortunate to have a class that everyone was so bonded together, but not now anymore. im not the only one who think this way. lets see how the class is going to be like in the following weeks. =/

this Ah Zhong Mee Sua is at the top of my MUST-TRY list. luckily i was able to find it in Xi Men Ding before leaving for the airport. basically the soup base is very well done (thick and smooth), and with the chewy Mee Sua which dont stick together, it makes a perfect lunch. see the number of people buying it? you cant deny how popular and great that bowl of Mee Sua is after you taste it. =D btw, you would have to stand while eating because there are no tables and chairs.

2008-04-14T21:46:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAN LING!

first day of school, pretty good. haha. weets, friday no school!

2008-04-12T19:32:00.002+08:00

frankly speaking, im really not looking forward to school on monday. i dont know why. im going to have two new classmates in my class. here comes my phobia of going to school again. *shrugs* great, im feeling moody again. zzz.

Day Two Part Two

we spent the afternoon at Jiu Fen (九份) which is a place high up in the mountain. a pretty good place for couples to hang around because i see A LOT of couples there. pretty much alike to Singapore's Bugis Village. anyone who visit taiwan got to come to this place because they sells many really yummy good food!

fried crispy yam ball. =p

big barbequed pork sausage! so yummy that my god brother had to get a second one. =p

MY FAVOURITE SMELLY TOFU! 臭豆腐好臭但是很好吃喔!

went to this famous fishball noodle shop where many stars came there before. they sell many kind of fishballS and they were HUGE! (there are sotong meat ball, shark meat ball, pork meat ball and etc)

i think taiwanese love yam a lot... yam kueh.

saw the plate of pink and yellow balls? MUST TRY! it is call yam ball (芋圆). it is very Q and sweet, can be served hot or cold. =DDD

冰淇淋薄饼! 他们把贡糖磨成粉状然后加上两汤匙冰淇淋再包起来. 很好吃喔!

went to this bakery shop to buy pineappple tarts and green bean cake.

after enjoying hot spring spa (泡温泉), went to another bakery to buy Tai Yang Biscuit (太阳饼).

Shih Lin Night Market!!! like funfair and pasam malam lah! 士林夜市我来也! 珍珠奶茶和爱玉冰!

超大鸡排和超大香肠! 比新加坡的好吃很多很多倍! 鸡胸肉又甜又嫩!

麻辣臭豆腐是我的最爱! =DDD

oyster egg. i prefer Singapore's version as Taiwan's version had more flour than egg. like what my tour guide said, "好像在吃鼻涕"! yucks!

在新加坡吃不到的猪血!

现做现卖的花生糖!

muahaha! i finally found the coffin bread and had the mutton version! bread and mutton drizzle with specially made potatoe sauce. YUMMY! and i finish everything by myself!

did the ear candling infront of many people in the public. T.T anyway, the ear candling act like a vaccum which suck up the dirt that was deep down in your ear.

did manicure at only $15!

bought some duck neck and head back to the hotel to have it with some TAIWAN BEER! muahaha. was bloody bloody full that day and didnt have the chance to take the photos of the other food that i eat. =/

2008-04-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

today is all about me and serene bestie's outing. it was our last meeting before school starts and sadly, we didnt managed to meet up with priscilla because we cant get through her phone. we miss you lah ah pris! zzz! =(

serene accompanied me down to Singapore Expo as i wanted to check out the John Little Mega Sales for the adidas perfume. thank you my darlingest xueqi for your intro! hehe. like what i have said, i just wanted to check out the adidas perfume, and some clothings for serene. in the end, hahaha the both of us spent almost $150 althogether. O.O! everything is so cheap and i believe nobody will be able to resist the temptation not to buy anything! WOW!

1) both of us bought the adidas fruity rhythm perfume at $19.90 for two! really a good buy because others are selling at $18+ each. and who say cheap perfume arent good. haha.

2) both of us bought the Ginvera Nutri White Hydrasoft Refining Toner at $6.40 each.

3) both of us bought the SlimSpa Shaping Cream (burn fat) at $23 each. others are selling at $40 each. LOL! i want to burn away all the fats that i gain from my taiwan trip! rraaww!

4) i bought the Ginvera Nutri White Hydrasoft Whitening Stretch Mask at $15 for 6 pieces.

5) i bought two Aloe Vera MakeUp Remover Tissues at $2 each. it is quite a good product and it is cheap! =p

serene bought much more stuffs than i do like. somemore, this is the first time she bought facial care stuff. and this is the second time she spent so much and it is always because of me! it all started with "i just wanted to check out the adidas perfume"... teeheehee!

after spending so much, we decided to head down to Changi Airport Terminal 3 since we had enough of shopping. had an early dinner which consists a big bowl of yummy ban mian with nice chilli! spent almost an hour to finish that big bowl of noodle. =x

took photos with all of our handphone camera and digital camera's function while slacking at the viewing hall. i feel that im getting uglier as day goes by, and thats really bad.

serene was so happily talking on the phone with her cousin in the toilet. poor her, it was really hard on her trying to please both parties. =( dont bully serene lah!

accompanied serene to secret recipe to have to some cake. (a way to vent out her frustrations too) and a chocolate super moist cake add on to our weight. T.T

something funny that serene did. =p

6 years of friendship never end! and dearest pris too! love them always! i enjoy a good and long hearty chat with my best friends. =)

why do so many of my friends are having so much problems? im really trying my best to fork out time to listen to their stories. and i really have sacrifice a lot just to allow my friends to have time to share their problems with me. havent i done enough? in your heart, im not even your best friend. yah im just someone who you can talk to when you need me to share your problems with. did you even care about my feelings when you said stuffs about friendship? never mind me, im not in a good mood.

2008-04-10T12:53:00.004+08:00

im feeling so hot right now. just came back from Jurong West Sport Stadium as i went to Pioneer Primary School's sport day with xueqi to support her sister. congrats, her sister came in third in the race. i feel like im an ice-cream there, melting under the scorching hot sun. geez.

Day Two Part One

had a simple and nice breakfast in the hotel. =)

firstly, our tour guide brought us to Chiang Kai-Shek Memorial Hall (中正纪念堂). but it is no longer called the Chiang Kai-Shek Memorial Hall (中正纪念堂), the taiwanese has changed the name to 自由广场. before heading there, we passed by Presidential Office Building (总统府) to see many soldiers around guarding that area. the weather was still very cold that my face became swollen. im so reluctant to take any photo on that day. -.-'''

then we went to the Martyrs' Shrine War Memorial Hall (忠烈祠) where it opens only at 9am daily. you will see soldiers marching and two soldiers standing VERY still at the side of the door.

we went to the Mao's House (毛家公主) where they sells Ling Zhi (灵芝) and Royal Jelly / Honey (蜂王浆). their items arent cheap okay, one big jar of Royal Jelly cost around S$700+ and each facial product cost around $140+. we bought jars of Royal Jelly, Royal Jelly Skin Deep Exfoliating Cream, Royal Jelly Skin Deep Essence and Royal Jelly Honey cream.

next, we went to Yehliu Park (野柳大自然绝景) to see the stone sculptures that was formed after many years of blowing from the strong wind. the sea water there is very clear, you could even see small fishes swimming about.

this is the famous Queen's Head. my dad said that the neck of the Queen's Head is getting thinner compared to the thick neck he saw when he was there 30 years ago.

the Ocean World besides the Yehliu Park and the various stalls selling seafood stuff.

2008-04-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

Day One (Part Two)

after our dinner, we went up to 88th, 89th and 91th floor of TaiPei 101. (you will have to pay for the tickets to go up). we took the world's fastest elevator to go up at the speed of 1010m/min, and it only took us 37 seconds to reach the 89th floor. damn cool.

at the 88th floor, we saw the world's largest and heaviest wind damper that weights 660 tons.

at the 91th floor, we went to the outdoor observatory to experience the power of the strong wind and mist. since it was a cold and rainy day, the wind was very strong too. a very great experience to stand at such a tall place to view the whole city. =)

the view outside my hotel at 西宁南路.

2008-04-08T23:59:00.003+08:00

Day One (Part One)

leave house at 5.30am to go Changi Airport Terminal 3 to check in our luggage for our flight at 8.35am. had some nice tim sum for breakfast at Terminal 3 after we had checked in. besides me, my daddy sister and godbrother went for the trip too. and oh, i brought my darlingest adela along with me too! muahaha. =D

my air ticket and passport. finally i got the chance to use my LV passport holder, it has been in the drawer for a long long long time. authentic one okay!

while waiting to board the plane. so excited!

the feeling when the plane took off from the ground was damn awesome! besides watching the movie Sweeny Todd, i spend the rest of the time looking at those fluffy puffy clouds and beautiful blue sky throughout the 4 hours and 10 minutes flight. candy floss! we were at about 4000 feets high and we were like travelling in a new planet without any sign of pollutions. how romantic would it be if you were watching it with your lover. =p

welcome to HEAVEN! muahaha!

my lunch and pineapple egg tart cake.

reaching Tao Yuan International Airport.

my room in Paradise Hotel at Xi Men Ding (西门町).

im so fucking cold when i reached Taipei despite wearing 3 long sleeves and jeans because the temperature was only 16 degree! raaawww! its so freezingly cold! should have listen to ky, BRING MORE JACKET! the weather was so cold that my face felt so dry and uncomfortable, and my lip cracks despite putting moisturiser! i was damn shagged when i reached the hotel. T.T

firstly, we went to TaiPei 101 and had japanese buffet at Wasabi for our dinner.

halfway through our dinner, something bad happened! i was happily taking photos of the food then i took a bite at the hot spring egg, and at the edge of the egg i discovered an insect! a tiny one! phew, lucky i didnt had the whole egg swallowed down my throat. geez. anyway, the egg was yummy lah.

as my god brother had it complained to the staff. and therefore, the manager gave us 10% discount off total bill, a big bowl of sashimi and fresh watermelon juice. =p although i didnt like sashimi, but still i had a few pieces because we cant finish it at all. gross.

but i had this finished up. the only thing that i like from the bowl of sashimi. geez.

yummy! i love the tempura prawns and custard puff! =D

and i had all these desserts finished up all by MYSELF! now you know why im getting fatter. 对了,台湾啤酒很好喝！its even better than singapore's, feel much smoother down the throat. hehe!

i shall continue tomorrow! =)

2008-04-08T11:31:00.002+08:00

im back from taiwan! and you can bet, i have gain weight because of those yummy smacking lip awesome food in taiwan! taiwan rocksyo! muahahaha. =DDDDD

2008-04-03T02:15:00.001+08:00

i went out with serene on tuesday because she said she cant help but keep missing me as im going to taiwan later in the morning. muahaha. love serene lah! =)

we had an early dinner at Rome's Deli in Shaw Tower. last time andy brought me and jonas there. Set dinner with soft drink at only $9.50! anyway, this place sells vegetarian food. =)

serene didnt expect that the soup was quite a large one because normally other places like pizza hut, the soup was serve in a rather small bowl. mushroom soup with bits of vegetarian meat, its far better than pizza hut's and so far this is the best i ever had. i dont like mushroom soup that taste very chalky because too much flour was added.

and butter bread to go with the soup. my taste bug tells me that oilve oil was added.

i had chicken mushroom baked rice! yummy! although i dislike eating broccoli and there are broccoli bits found mixed with the rice, but the bits are so tiny that i dont mind eating it. healthy okay!

serene had spicy cheese spagetti. being a cheese lover, she does enjoy her meal very much. to me, it tastes like medicine. oops.

we walked to suntec area to check out the new Singapore Flyers. it was quite an amazing and romantic place to hang out. but i would suggest people to pay tickets and sit on the Singapore Flyers only when the casino is ready. =)

anyway, the toilet at Singapore Flyers very pretty and smell very nice. im very particular about toilets. LOL!

sometimes... i really dislike my left eye because its single eyelid while my right eye is double eyelid. geez. serene is becoming prettier right?! people now learning to put on makeup le wor! hohoho.

and we walked back to suntec city because we decided to have dessert! muahaha. okay okay, i admit im really getting fatter. geez, i just couldnt resist good food ma! after much hesitation, we decided to hop in NYDC for some brownies!

NUTTY NOUGAT BROWNIES WITH VANILLA ICE CREAM! if you can resist the temptation, you are not a human! damn sinful lah omg! the brownies tastes so browny lah! i dont know what im talking. frankly speaking, after eating this serene and i feel so sinful because its so heaty! let's pray hard that we dont gain anymore weight. =x

im going to taiwan in another few hours... so im going to have my last dota game before i board the plane! bye people! till sunday! im going to miss my BFS, xueli, serene, pris, xueqi, chinxiang, yingjie, shermin and blah blah blah. muacks!

2008-04-02T19:01:00.001+08:00

i believe this year was the nicest April Fool Day i ever had because i got pranked 4 times. =p

First Prank

the first prank started off with a simple msn chat...

Andy: 9 more mins to april fool lol
Me: lol dont play prank on me ar
Andy: i go ur house find you later!
Me: yah rite, like u will come
Andy: if i come? LOL
Me: lol what you expect me to do?
Andy: come down meet mi? lol
Me: cannnn! but you at home now what! -.-'''
Andy: bb cya (went offline)

i didnt believe that he will come my house because he where got so nice come all the way from toh guan to my house just to prank me. then, one hour later...

Andy: you believe i reach your house le? haha...
(of course i dont believe lah! how can it be sia! but actually i was quite worried that he really came.)
Andy: Sian reach le then you like that say me. haix... come down la! haha...
(i think the "come down la" made me believe that he was really downstairs now. but i double confirm with him again before i go down)
Andy: why you choose not to believe me. i today damn sad wanna find ppl pei you also dont want.. sian..
(the moment i read that message i immediately reply him that im going down because he sound so serious)

the moment i step out of my house i recieved his call, he told me that he is at home and HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!! argh!!! GF is being nice to him and willing to go down since he say he is feeling sad, turn out BF was actually playing a prank on me! geez.

Second Prank

recieved an sms from andy when i am still pigging in my bed.

Andy: (at 12.24pm) hey where you? reach school le ma?
Me: you send to wrong people!
Andy: huh? zzz correct la. today got module talk in school.. you nv check np mail meh? zzz compulsary talk sia... zzz 12.30
Me: dont believe lah. if got how come ytd hanyi ky or you never remind me.
Andy: Hanyi remind me this morning... zzz... i dont know la... you dont want come later miss out jiu high liao lor...

(i immediately sms hanyi and went online to check my mail but to realise that i didnt recieved it. so i was thinking that maybe i dont need to go for the talk and i reply back to andy)

Andy: lolx you go check ar? means i did it... prank 2... hahah happy april fool day...

!!! AHHHH!!! why am i so stupid!!!

Third Prank

I play a prank on andy with the sms that xueli send me (that was the fourth prank i recieve from xueli). he called me and we started chatting... this was how the story goes...

andy recieved an email from the police and he was fined for downloading music from baidu.com. he forgot that baidu.com is now ban from downloading and hence he got caught through a device that the police placed on the web to catch the downloaders. he was requested to pay the fine of $150 at the SAM machine.

Andy: can lend me money ma?

WITHOUT THINKING I SAID OKAY! T.T although i realise something was amiss after i said okay but it was too late!

i bet andy is damn elated yesterday, for playing THREE pranks on me in a single day. geez!!!

2008-04-02T03:31:00.002+08:00

i dont like andy!!! because he played THREE pranks on me during April Fool Day!!! andy is a baddie!!! rawww!!!

HAPPY APRIL FOOL LAH!!! =)

2008-03-31T01:30:00.000+08:00

如果那天
我没有遇见你

我想
我就不会感到
如此痛苦
如此悲伤
如此难过
如此令人悲从中来了

但是
如果我没有遇见你

我也不会了解
那么欢乐
那么温柔
那么相爱
那么温暖
那么幸福的心情了

含着泪水的我
今天
依旧仰望著天空

仰望著天空
你幸福嗎？　

我非常幸福

恋爱是种不能想像的东西
因为拥有了
又要放下
是如此难过及困苦的决定

不过能遇见你真的很幸福

能被你所爱真的很幸福
爱你也真的很幸福

i find this short passage really sweet and meaningful. good night. =)

2008-03-30T23:01:00.001+08:00

went to Mandai this morning to pray for my ancestors (Grandfather, Grandmother and mummy). as you can bet, i wasnt in a good mood throughout the whole day. im feeling sick too, and the feeling isnt nice at all. well, who would feel good having to survive with a cough and blocked nose. ~.~

the coolest thing that happened today was that i saw my clone!!! everyone said that the both of us really look damn alike, i would say that we are 80% alike. isnt that cool?! both of us have the same hairstyle, both of us wear spec (mine was red while hers was black), both of us were wearing the little miss series Tshirt today (mine was Little Miss Birthday while hers was Little Miss Sunshine). hmm she might be the clone that my friends saw in SP!

the flowers that i made for mummy! with shermin's help.

muahaha. yesterday was the first time i killed 3 people during one of four dota game. but the other three rounds was the first time i was killed for so many time by AI. lalala.

2008-03-29T21:30:00.003+08:00

yesterday i was intending to sleep at about 2am but something happened to my buddy so i end up sleeping at 5am. all these happened because of an irresponsible fucking guy. those fucking bastards ought to learn some basic gentleman stuffs from my BFS. geez.

anyway, people especially girls who live around BoonLaySecondary ought to be careful when they are heading home at late hours. it would be ideal if there is a guy sending you girls home because there is a flasher loitering around this area. and my dear buddy was so unlucky to meet one yesterday while she was on her way to my house. this guy was riding a bicycle with one hand on and the other hand at his precious dick, probably masturbating while riding. this guy rode all the way and stopped infront of my buddy, pulling his pant down and showing off his precious dick. sicko! and i have to go down alone to fetch my buddy at some ulu ulu block because she went up the lift to hide from the flasher. T.T i was frightened too on the way to fetch buddy, luckily i didnt meet anyone. phew.

slept with buddy on my single bed after i finished a game of dota. (i downgrade my double size bed to single size bed) surprisingly, i didnt fall down from my bed.

oh yeah, i bake chocolate moist cake today. successful. =D

2008-03-29T02:19:00.001+08:00

yesterday was my turn to cook dinner and the leftover destructions in the kitchen was terrible. muahaha. although i can cook, but i cant seem to organise my stuff in the kitchen neatly and orderly. teehee. so i need a man who is willing to finish everything i cook from the plate, and clean my kitchen for the rest of his life! LOL!

walked to JP NTUC this morning to shop for grocery, and walked home again. excersize! now i realised that i do enjoy shopping in NTUC. haha. probably under the influence from my mummy since young.

chicken breast wrapped with cheese and ham. used the prawn flour to marinate the meat. if you ever watch channel 8's variety show, you will know whose recipe i gotten it from. =p

potatoe salad with sweet thai chilli sauce.

fried prawns with special sauce (mayonnaise + wasabi + thousand island). its nice okay, even though with a little bit of wasabi in it!

~~steamed~~ microwaved egg with tofu.

and i cook Si Chuan Soup (hot and spicy) too. mission accomplished! =DDD

damn, i think i have really grown fatter. zzz. have i?!

im so dead beaten from the cooking session. T.T and, i seriously feel that certain guys are so irresponsible that someone should write their name in death note. zzz.

2008-03-27T20:21:00.003+08:00

random.

family BBQ under the rain. -.-

byebye old house. im going to miss the scenary there.

just now went running with xueqi. must do more excersize since some of my BFS keep commenting that i have grow fatter. zzz.

is anybody interested to watch Step Up 2? Is It You from Cassie, one of the great songs from Step Up 2 Soundtrack. =)

2008-03-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

today was my IS enrolment. and woots, i chose Exploring Photograhing and Introduction To Social Psychology. muahaha! im in the same class as ky and samuel for Introduction To Social Psychology! no more feeling of loneliness during IS module! =D

Jesse McCartney released its new album and his new smashing hit (Leavin')! isnt jesse hot? been such a long time since he last release his album, and this MV is so NC-16! haha.

2008-03-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

this was how i spend my day on 23 March.

felt rather peaceful throughout the day, well maybe not, that 10 minutes of weeping session. hard to believe that i have made it this far, one whole year. =)

2008-03-23T13:15:00.003+08:00

TODAY IS THE DAY.

home hospital SGH ward 74 outram park polytechnic admission waterbed pale face blue-green nails cough silence panicked death doctors nurses announcement tears agony breakdown phonecalls rejection cold hopeless ignored abandoned hurted rain funeral incense paper makeup coffin smile heartless moodless alive but dead screams torture suicide isolate lost frustration lonely promises broken daydream emo

我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中

寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦

爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容

爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我

看着你要走　
我还装着笑容　
而为何在我心中会舍不得你
掩饰的脆弱我还要撑多久
如果现在开口
我要如何挽留你

2008-03-22T23:43:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL!

went out with the groups of peeps including some stranger friends to AMK hub for a movie, "Semi Pro". hilarious but lame. sang birthday song right inside AMK hub with lots of people watching at us, especially at samuel. so i believe samuel wouldnt want to step into AMK hub again for a long long time. dinner at pizza hut and then some arcade session. home sweet home.

nice daddy low bought a 22 inch LCD monitor screen for me. i want a 22 inch LCD TV in my room too!

my room is still in a mess. haha. the flower toy that alvin jonas and william gave me on valentine day is still with me. muahaha. fake flowers equal feelings are fake too. thats what they said. =p

2008-03-22T02:08:00.003+08:00

went out on a date with serene at vivo city, and we watched the movie "Rule #1". horrible. although im not really afraid of anything, but im scared of ghost. i got so freaked out by those horrifying scenes in the cinema that i keep covering my mouth with my hand. ohmygod and whatthefuck are the constant words throughout the movie. but you ought to look at serene's reaction, she basically buried her whole face into her hand, and at least i had my eyes wide open looking at the screen throughout the whole movie. muahaha. it was a great movie with good storyline, and both of us agreed that kelvin tong really have the potential to produce two thumbs up ghost movie. well "The maid" was also produced by kelvin tong.

serene and i went to the open area to slack around since the both of us arent in the mood for shopping. spent the whole afternoon well accompanied with a good hearty chat. had a early dinner at the GreenHouse Cafe where i recommended serene to for some good food in a peaceful environment with good service from friendly staff. definitely a good place for people who decided to slow down their pace for a moment from this buzzling city, especially for one who arent in a good mood. well, thats me.

there are four different set meal each day to choose from, which the set meal includes a drink + soup of the day + dessert. price are reasonable too, ranging from $10 to $20.

orange juice. creamy corn was the soup of the day. it smells real corny and i really love the sweet corn taste that lingers in my mouth after every mouth. =D

serene's grilled chicken with lemon and orange sauce. that should be the name if i didnt remember wrongly. awesomely delicious. =D

my breaded dory fillet with special creamy sauce. totally love it, especially the fresh vegetables. =D

peach cake, a die-hard-must-try dessert in this cafe. both serene and i was hoping for a second serving. =p

my new baby. was thinking of getting an ipod or itouch though, but i didnt really like apple's progamme. okay whatever, its just a device used for playing songs when im bored so i shouldnt care much about its appearance. right, thats the way it should be.

you are still the one i think of. sorry its not you.